Have you ever felt like you’ve wasted a bunch of time in your life to the point where you look in the mirror and say,
“DAAM… What the fuck am I doing?”
I had a moment like that last night, where I looked at my life in retrospective and was like, “what the fuck am I doing???”
I don’t doubt the fact that greatness flows through my veins (Look at Grand Daddy & My own Father & Mother)… I come from a line of successful people that have in some way, shape or form changed lives.
My failing is that I’m too AMBITIOUS… My goal in life was to bypass the bullshit and go straight the top.
My AMBITIONS in life basically turned out to be the bullshit holding me back.
So since we got a black man running the U.S. now, I’ve become sort of an advocate for change and I decided to move past THE AMBITIOUS BULLSHIT and look towards a NEW DAY!
Which brings me to this…
I was chatting with LL (Lois Lame) last night and we made a bet. She’s arguably a binge drinking lush about 3-4 days a week and recently noticed her liver may fall out of her torso sooner than later so she decided to stop drinking!
So LL is usually a woman of her word (well not when it comes to drinking) so I decided to take her on and said I’d ride it out with her and bet her I’d last longer without a drink than she could.
I’ve been through my phase of alcoholism about 5-6 months ago… I was trippin’ and drinking was a release from the shit going on in my personal life and made me do some things I can’t regret now, but thinking back… It was shit that needed to be done to clear out my clouded head.
And since then I’ve learned moderation and now I can go days without a sip of Ciroc Obama or Goose or my baby… The LONG ISLAND ICE TEA… Oh and let’s not forget the YAGER BOMBS!!!! YAGER BOMBS!!! ( Don’t drink this shit… I just like to say it) 😉
Any hoots, since I’m drying out for the holiday, I’ve come up with some ideas to fill my nights out with my friends that don’t involve the DEVILS NECTAR!
#1. NEW CLOTHES
Everyone loves a sharp dressed dude and since Ali came out the other night basically dressed like me (glasses & V-Neck sweater), I figure I got to go shopping… Maybe I might dress like him now and wear some Ambercrombie Moose button-ups everywhere…. or maybe not
Any hoots clothes have been something I’ve been on for awhile now and I love stepping up my fashion game lately. So some shopping and some new gear always gets my mind off the lix!
#2 THE IpHONE
Music, video and we’ve recently discovered iPorn (pornhub.com)… This is a site most of you dudes and chicks may have frequented on your PC (STOP FRONTING!!!), but I stumbled upon the mobile version because of Shaun (Thank you sir! You have changed my life again…).
Now I think the iPhone is hands down the best all around device out for the casual gadget head (fuck the Blackberry Storm and it’s lame ass touch screen and negative user friendliness) Now I’m kinda limited in the way I can do my email and writing on an iPhone, but I’m content cause we got mobile adult entertainment now!
GOD BLESS AMERICA!!!
#3 THE TIMESHARE CHICK THAT KEEPS CALLING MY CELL
For the past week or so I’ve been being harassed by a timeshare rep who got my number from a sign-up form my sister did at JiffyLube (Thanks Karen! You’re an awesome sister!)
So this bitch calls me like 20X a day and I’m like geez get off my nuts. So the other night I was in the whip put her on Bluetooth and Shaun and I decided to have some fun with her on the speakerphone.
Long story short… I think a few more conversations from now and she’ll go on the free trip with me or have phone sex with me…. Not sure yet, but she should be hitting me up later on today, so I’ll give ya’ll an update soon! 😉
#4 POSITIVE PATTY AKA ABBY!
New face and new friend in my life. Taught me that POSITIVE THINKING makes you more content with your existence… So I tried it and gosh darn it! It worked! Now I’m like HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY! 🙂
CALL ME MOTHERFUCKING POSITIVE PETE! PETER PLUS! Maybe even IT ALL ADDS UP ARTY!
I’m all smiles, shits-&-giggles and cloud 9’s!
I’ve never been so HAPPY, HAPPY, HAPPY in my life!
I want to hang myself and see if I can hold my smile while the blood stops flowing to my brain!
THINKING POSITIVE WHAT A WAY TO GO!
But seriously, shortie is inspiring and I’ve only met her once. So she gets props for showing me something new (which I’ve clearly adapted into my own way into my life).
#5 WORKING OUT
I go in 5 days a week. 5 days I could be DRANKIN’! So That’ll hold me down and I’m so close to being like 50 Cent (yeah 30-40 pounds closer), but… I just need to opt for one elective cosmetic surgery… A little nip/tuck never hurts 😉
Writing got me through the toughest time in my life emotionally and is getting me though this time of transition in my life now. I put it down on paper and it puts it all in perspective! Thank you LORD for giving me a mind that works and thinks RIGHT so I don’t get LEFT behind.
#7 NICKELUS F
2 babies on the way, a Crown Victoria, that he claims rides like you’re floating on a cloud (sure…) and the best rapper alive!
I’m sorry he’s not signed yet, but neither was Jay-Z at this point in his career, so I’m not worried. Greatness is sometimes overlooked because of the politics in the game.
We do what we do now to make sure it’s not lost. So F… I got you!
Ain’t a LONG ISLAND ICE TEA or CHICK out there that will make me forget that you’re # 1. (NO HOMO)
#8 BASKING IN THE KNOWLEDGE THAT I’M THE MAN
I’ve realized even if you hate me, you love me. Showing emotion towards me just proves it.
– Pop shots at me
– Piss in my car
-Break my heart & spread lies about me
YA’LL GOT A SPOT IN YOUR LITTLE HEADS THAT STILL MAKES YOU WANT TO SLOB MY SYMBOLIC KNOB OFF STILL!
I’m so content with it and love it because I love ya’ll so much… Love you more than having a drink!
And the fact of the matter is that I can show my emotion towards ya’ll openly and don’t care what you do or say to me. Ya’ll have done the worst to me already.
I need ya’ll in my life to show balance because I ain’t ever going back!
My nigga! My blacker older brother. The only nigga I know better than I know myself and he hates me for it! 😉
You’re AWESOME DUDE!
I’m so in love with you, but I enjoy letting you go more than anything.
You’ve been my favorite bitch to abuse and you still love me even though I share you with all my friends.
I never make it RAIN with you, but you REIGN supreme when it comes down to it.
My nigga drake said best,
“I miss cake these days.
I can’t even afford a mistake these days.
All of my favorite girls miss Drake H these days.
Please don’t take offense to my ways..”
Cause I need drug money
Who got drug money
I am talkin “white phantom sittin on dub” money.
I am talkin “cold champaigne at tha club” money.
And no I ain’t emotional but baby I love money.
WOW! I LOVE YOU MONEY… now you know why they call me “H-Dollar” cause I’m married to that bitch and I took one of her last names willingly!
THE DAILY DOUBLE: LL (LOIS LAME)
Shit… She can’t drink so I guess that’s my inspiration to do this for her. I don’t think she’ll win our bet though because I can go weeks without a drink and she’s so surrounded by the peers of pressure that she doesn’t stand a chance, but I actually have faith in her to go a distance with this because I’m going through it with her, which will be fun for me.
Might be hell for her though…
And even if I lose (which i highly doubt) I know I’ve at least helped change one more person for the better and overall I’ll feel like I’ve won!
So I guess I do feel a lot better about myself because if this works out, at least I braught about change in someone’s life that I actually care about.
Next I might start helping homeless people… Maybe…
H Diddy Blogger… OUT
SONG OF THE DAY!
LISTEN: ===> Nickelus F ft. Ivory – New Day (Produced by Lab Ox)