Before I go in… I got to remind y’all this is just me writing. A lot of it comes from personal experience and a lot of it comes from inspiration, but most of it comes from my brain.
I function on a higher level of creative thinking that kind of meshes my life into my words and a lot of people take me literally. Like some people who read my blog or writing in general think I’m a “lost soul…” Well I might very well be that, but according to my portfolio, I’m doing just fine.
So enjoy what I write as a novelty and not a literal interpretation of who I am because for real… Only a few people know me and what I write is an expression of a particular part of me, but not 100% me.
So take your time and enjoy this bit of entertainment like it’s your favorite sitcom. 🙂 LET’S GO!
If I was your man…..
I’d… hit that sh*t like A-Rod….
Don’t you understand I… (I’m)…
I’m trying to be your favorite blogger on your blogroll
I know this wasn’t planned… All I got is LOVE
What he got?
Take this chance…
OH! I’m being such a HATER…Why?
Cause women are strange creatures. No matter what the situation.
I feel like sometimes when it comes to women nowadays I dig too deep cause I need to fill a void left from my last relationship(s). Mainly because in the past (aside from maybe 1 relationship) all I’ve stuck with were needy twits, but aren’t the majority of women that way as it is… NEEDY?
It’s either ATTENTION or MONEY or SEX or SECURITY or SEX & MONEY… Issue after issue when all I want to do is CHILL… Where’s the women who like to just kick it? Who like to get to know you or spend the time generating a common interest that bonds you? The chicks that know it’s deeper then just what I can do for you, but what we can do for each other?
SIDE NOTE: ===> A relationship is built on give and take… When someone is giving too much, yeah it fills our natural need to nurture and help other mammals survive and grow, but it’s not what bonds us MENTALLY. If you’re in that situation and maybe it’s not all that, but emotionally consumes you… It’s not usually the best thing. Shit I was in it and it’s definitely not worth the effort no matter how you think you feel about the person because those people don’t care about your feelings, they just suck you dry emotionally when there’s so much more out there… (Words from a HATER…)
So any hoots… Yeah I’ve found a “bond” with someone and you’d think it would be a sweet situation, but like all things in love and life it’s got complications.
Cause that’s the way it is and shit it got me lookin’ like a HATER…
Doesn’t matter what I say or do, 2 factors keep me from even getting to know where it can go and it got me kinda twisted and you know something… ===> I’m too FLY for that.
This nigga The Dream said, “how did one look at you over take the kind HEART in me…”
Yeah that’s kinda what I feel, but not really…
I’m at a point that makes me want to say fuck it and keep it moving cause I ain’t even seeing this chick like that (YES I REMAIN SINGLE). I got enough female friends already (Uughhh)…
BUT still I walk through clubs and my radar is on and my mind is somewhere up top thinking about that… Got me on my Yaggfu Front “LeftField” steez… 😦
Yeah… There ain’t no plan of action I can really take… I’m kinda lost in my own ways. So why do I continue to HATE?
That’s human nature… It’s in us to not like the “opposition” to not like a certain race or religion because they don’t fit into the scheme of how we feel shit should be… But if you think about it… The world we live in now isn’t that great at all and to spread a philosophy of “HATERISMS” is not progressive or logical… It kinda sets us back to a time when personal happiness was not a focal point for our existence. Old thinking is the reason we have over population, a huge divide between upper and lower class and shit like war… And you’d think for the most part the new generation is not retarded… RIGHT???
So… WHY AM I FUCKING HATING!?!?! In a world of billions of people there’s got to be some(ONE) else that will fall from the sky for me… It happened once already and for a short time it was great just getting to know someone for once without the extras making it complicated.
And I like to consider myself above and beyond HATING nowadays because I’ve learned through experience that we function on our brains not our hearts. Our hearts make the machine run and react to what our brains tell it to do. So when your heart skips a beat and flutters when you think about someone, it’s your brain signaling you to chill…
My brain tells me to let my heart beat steady from now on…
So I’ve decide to fall back, fall out and continue on my path…
Am I a HATER??? Yeah… Admittedly so I am, because when there’s no love, hate or emotion there, then that connection is gone. Being indifferent towards someone like they don’t exist pretty much is the end all to any relationship or connection you have.
What I need to know is, is this relationship/connection not worth keeping or is it deeper and I’m just being SELFISH H again and wanting it all?
I really don’t know… 😦
For now though I got to find Houstatlantavegas ===> I’m gone… Meaning… Figure out yourself, SUCKAS!!! 🙂
H Diddy Blogger… OUT
“Girls like you turn men like me into HATERS & I must admit it, you got me lookin’ like a HATER…” – The Dream (BOOOOOOO…) 😦
D/L: ===> The Dream – Hater
LISTEN: ===> The Dream – Hater
…:::BONUS MOOD MUSIC:::..
D/L: ===> Yaggfu Front – LeftField
LISTEN: ===> Yaggfu Front – LeftField