Quote Of The Day
“If you want to move up… sometimes you need to move on…” – Hugh ‘H Diddy Dollar’ Mulzac
I told this to Lois Lame last night when we was having our ‘semi-annual’ catching up convo… So yeah, my stupid ass should listen to my own words sometimes. You see… I go for what I feel is ‘right’ even though it’s so ‘wrong’ sometimes. And don’t get it twisted; people feel my movement… I got my first real shot of cooool points in a long time when my new friend who’s friends with my other friend and Karel Marie (yes your name remains!) was actually disappointed when I she didn’t get to know me the first time we met. I was honestly blown away because I figured a fly chick like that wouldn’t even associate herself with someone as ‘unique’ as I am, but she was diggin’ my vibe… Then it hit me; I had forgotten how much of a MAGNET I was… How come???
Because I couldn’t move on from someone feeling I wasn’t i+ anymore… Basically my Muse (Wait… no more Muse… Her name is K). I let my cool slide with her cause I felt like she was just always going to be there and could handle the shit storm that is H. Apparently I eventually lost my edge with her and it ended with me going off because she carried me like a child on a text message (Talk about losing my cool…) Any hoots… that shit I had with her I threw on a back burner till I could figure it out and after awhile I forgot about it (after like 5 blogs I wrote inspired by our last talk that is). Either way it didn’t put me in a bad space, but put me in a different state of mind.
See I really can’t stand it when people don’t like me… I know people hate me; but they at least like me… (does that even make sense???)
It does to me… I’ve never left a bad impression on someone… EVER… Even when I’ve been super offensive or belligerent… But I think I did with K because after time we kind of drifted apart because we started to feel differently about our ‘dreams’ in life and I couldn’t understand why she changed up on me so quickly… But I kind of do now because ‘if you want to move up… sometimes you need to move on…”
When we first met our connection was ridiculously strong or she was a good bullshitter and can made shit seem real on the fly… Whatever it was I was taken in and loved every moment of it, but like I said as it went on she changed up because of her life situation and I refused to let what we had go because at the time it drove me to do more. I felt like K was like motivation…
Truth be told she did inspire me on the positive tip so much… She even compared our friendship to chemistry; how opposites attract and shit (such a dork)… But she threw me in as the electron (negative) charge and she was the proton (positive) charge. I honestly think we are just IONS with different charges (directions) in life now and the only charges we carry are credit card bills…
And me… I have the worst time moving on because people to me are the only standard in my life. We’re suppose to switch up cars and clothes; not people… In her case I can see how someone like myself wouldn’t fit in the picture anymore, but in my case I can’t see her not fitting in the picture anymore… She was a true friend and I neglected that and now regret it… 😦
We’ll always be golden even if we don’t speak because we still got an undeniable connection. That can’t be faded, but “if you want to move up… sometimes you need to move on…” I hope we’re not at that point though cause K is one of those people like me that’s just MAGNET and unlike me; she hasn’t forgotten that…. (I DO REMEMBER NOW THOUGH) and maybe we’ll be cool again… I know it’s really on me to get that right though.
– H Diddy Blogger… OUT
“And I remember that day when she leavin’/ She almost blow my mind/ But it was the ending of SHE & the starting of ME/ Cause I know it’s MOVE UP time!/ I’m MOVING ON now to good times…” -Beenie Man
D/L: ===> Mos Def – Universal Magnetic
LISTEN: ===> Mos Def – Universal Magnetic