Archive for December, 2009

Jay’s words have influenced a lot of my movements and thought patterns since 1997. My favorite song ever is “Lucky Me,” but don’t get it twisted, I’m no “robot” or want to emulate what him or his team did. It’s about making our own mark in this and like with him it will take time, effort and most of all patients.

I’ve seen minor successes in this game, but in 2009 I saw a lot more than I ever expected. I saw Drake take off, I’ve broken bread with the majors and saw my first taste of movie money. 2009 marked the year I decided that “Corporate America” wasn’t for me and that working for people is like a step above slavery… I learned that we don’t choose the people in our lives, they’re drawn in by factors above and beyond my understanding and whether they choose to stay or not is something we can’t control.

I learned that my train of thought is something most people won’t understand till I make something more of myself to prove it to them. And honestly… FUCK THEM because if you didn’t believe in me then, then why would I take up for you late?

It don’t work that way for me… That’s where this song comes it. Jay-Z “Get My Shit Off (Get Off Minez)” a lost song from the Blueprint 2 sessions that I discovered off a Kay Slay/ Kid Capri mixtape back in 2003 I think. This song is amazing and out of all the music I heard from Jay this decade, I feel that this song sums up how I feel, my struggle (or lack there of) through trying times.

This nigga said, “(If you ain’t ready to die) My advice would be to back up and live/ Cause the fact of this is (I keep 4-4’s in the sky)/ Mind on my money/Nigga I’m so for real I hope you’re not finding this funny (Nah..)/ I live everyday like my last/ Fast money, fast cars, fast temper, draw down faster than y’all (I’m about to get my shit off)”

Shit… I can’t front like I ain’t had it easy my whole life, but at least I know where I came from and aside from the issues, the stress, the people tugging at me to do it! DO IT! DO IT!!! I’m always gonna take it all in and  follow my heart.


2010 marks the year that we can reflect back on 10 years of real memories for people in my generation and honestly… It’s all a blur to me. I lived it up too much and have today to look forward to. Tomorrow isn’t really in our hands at all. It’s what we do in the now that will define the generations to come. Remember that and live each day by your own freewill and if you have an ounce of courage in your heart and mind  to go after what you really want out of life,  maybe we’re on the same page and there is some hope for us in this world of sin…

Enjoy the music.

P.S.: I’m going to be writing the faces, places and music that made my 2009 special after New Years… Look out for that one and enjoy yourselves tonight… I know I will 🙂


That’s why I give you my UPS, my DOWNS, my PAIN, my PASSION, my PLEASURE, my GOOD & BAD times, niggas… my whatever
This my version of R Kelly’s This is “A Nigga’s Threat”
I hope you took from it what works for you
I was put on this EARTH to move MOUNTAINS, I think…
I’m almost sure…
But I’ve been smokin’ a lot lately, not counting my drink…



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DISCLAIMER: Download the song “FUCK I LOOK LIKE” (ladies) before you start calling me an asshole. 😉

So I’m a big Sporty Thievz fan even though they only really put out one album and every single they had poppin’ was pretty much on some ‘woman bashing’ shit, but hey… That was their lane and I can respect that. So I was choppin’ up on the twit with my nigga Ivory and he mentioned their “Cheapskate” song as being one of his favorites and I was like fuck dat! “FUCK I LOOK LIKE” goes way hard and really puts these bitches in they place! haahahaha 😉

Seriously, I’m sure these niggas wasn’t 100% serious when they dropped this shit, but it’s daam funny and entertaining to sing and blow some steam off when you mad at a jawn. Ali, Shaun and I have ridden off to this song many times on those late night of partying. Shit this used to be Kenny & I’s anthem when we had the L.I. bachelor pad back in 2003.

Luckily I’ve always surrounded myself by women who aren’t selfish or money hungry… That’s a blessing and a curse because the need for money is replaced by schizophrenia, neurosis and just plane old coo-coo sometimes…

Lately though I haven’t had that problem lingering when it comes to females in my life and I’m kinda happy. 🙂

So… This to me is the “HARDEST WOMAN BASHING SONG OF THE DECADE!” I only say this because it points out the obvious and makes a nigga really want to tell a bitch, “WHAT THE FUCK I LOOK LIKE???

P.S. Excuse my language… I’m a method writer, I have to get into character when I write about a topic… I ain’t really mean to call any of you hoes, “bitches.” 😉

Why you can’t buy me a drink, buy me a mink?
Pay for my link, pay for my rent?
Pay for my cab, at least go half?
Throw me some cash, throw me some ass?
Fill my belly, wit shrimp and spaghetti?
Take me to the telly, let me use your celly?
Take me to the movies, take me to bloomi’s?
Buy me some jewelry, buy me some coogi?
Buy me a coupe, feed me some fruits?
Buy me some suits, buy me some boots?
Pay for my cut, fuck when I wanna fuck ?
Lick me up, why don’t you come pick me up?
Why don’t you meet me here, and meet me there?
Pay my fair, pay for my beer?
Pay my phone, pay for my loans?
Make me moan, take me home?

“I get crazy head, on the crazy reg/ She say my dick thick like a baby leg…”

D/L: ====> Sporty Thievz – Fuck I Look Like


D/L: ====> Sporty Thievz – Cheapskate

D/L: ====> Sporty Thievz – No Pigeons

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I saw this quote by Grace Hansen and it reminded me of “The Life.” I almost forgot I had one 😉

2010 is less than 48 hours away. What you gonna do?

Live the Life or just ‘live…’ Remember we’re born to live a life or die… Live a little nigga… IT’S A NEW YEAR 🙂


…:::MOOD MUSIC:::…

“My life is all I have/ My rhymes, my pen, my pad/ And I done made it through the struggle, don’t judge me/ What you say now, won’t budge me/ Cuz where I come from, so often/ People you grew up with, layin in a coffin/ But I done made it through the pain in spite/ It’s my time now, my world, my life/ My life…”

D/L: ===> Styles P & Pharoahe Monch – The Life

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I was flipping through pictures on my iPhone and found this one of Moose (C.E.‘s puppy) trying to climb some stairs… Now this dog is no bigger than my hand and is a bit of a menacing little thing that likes to bite and scratch and eat expensive footwear…

Besides all that… He’s still an inspiration to me because the little fucker made the effort to climb up some stairs that his mommy would probably end up throwing him down eventually 😉 ( JOKING…). But real talk, it got me thinking about how much of an effort do we put into things in our lives that take this much effort?

Things we’re passionate about and the things we feel we want out of  life… Do we put a real effort towards them?

I mean this dog really wants to get up those stairs… For what exactly?

I don’t know, but it’s there and he wants it. Shouldn’t we all have that type of DETERMINATION about things in our lives?

I can’t front and ain’t trying to disrespect anyone I’m close to by saying this either, but a lot of the people I’m around on a regular basis have lost that passion for living… And if you read this and take offense to it, I’m more than likely talking about you, but like I said, “no disrespect.” I suppose it takes a special breed of people to want to make the efforts and sacrifices to want  to really live. Then again some of us are maybe more suited for the regimental lifestyle…

See I was in a state of “passionless living” for a long time and it took me a while to bounce back and see the light… Now I see that life is to be lived; not regimentally planned out so we can die knowing we made a little money and drove a little car and just made it a ” little living.” That’s not really living; that’s programming… Brain washing! I’m DETERMINED never to be like that. I like knowing that when the clock strikes 1:30AM I have the option to go out and do as I please. I like to feel free and just do me with or without the money backing my existence. It’s my world after all and it doesn’t stop for anyone, but me at this point.

The TV Show "Small Wonder" had "human robots" in it...

I figure close minded living is for the weak of heart now… I used to think that maybe I can fit into the 9 to 5 life and settle for the little house with the 2 car garage, 2.5 children and the servient wife, but I don’t want that. Ideally I want a life filled with love, passion and some adventure in it… The rest of that shit will happen on its own and naturally… This “ordinary standard” of living is the reason there’s over population, divorce, depression, kids shooting up schools and shit. It’s a fucked up, but true…  IT DOESN’T WORK ANYMORE!!!

Any hoots… Moose made me smile and kinda made me feel like there’s at least hope for a dog to be DETERMINED to want to do something real with its life (metaphorically speaking that is)… Maybe some of you “human robots” can take in some of that energy and do something besides worry about the bullshit day-to-day and live a little!

I know I’m DETERMINED to LIVE… How about you?


P.S.: This blog might honestly have nothing to do with Moose at all… I just wanted a reason to post that picture. 😉

…:::MOOD MUSIC:::…

“The most important time in history is, NOW, the present/ So count your blessings cause time can’t define the essence… -Talib Kweli

“Stand in ovation, cause you put the Hugh in Human/ Cause and effect, effect everything you do and that’s why I got love in the face of hate…” -Talib Kweli

D/L: ===> Black Star (Talib Kweli) – K.O.S. (Determination)


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Love Songs…

So I’m on this “LOVE” trip lately, which doesn’t mean that I’m “in love” per-say, but like I said in  the last post (Power Of Love…) I want that feeling because there’s not much to left out there to really live for besides ‘love.’

What I am in love with though is this singer’s voice and album… Anjulie. Here’s her latest single and video  “Love Songs“…

She just happens to be my favorite singer at the moment and her album is on repeat all day! Take this one in because it’s classic music people!

Thank Me Later… H

“I fall so easy for the stupid little lines/ Hollywood and sunny skies/ Fancy restaurants with three forks and knives/ I fall so easily in love…”

D/L: ===> Anjulie – Love Songs

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“When the power of love overcomes the love for power, the world will know peace…”Sri Chinmoy Ghose

I’m a strong believer in the power of love… Love is what drives the weak to step up. Love is what makes us act passionately. Love is what makes us happy, sad and feel high all at the same time. Loves is what leads our emotions and our hearts forward. Love was the downfall of many great men/women (So I’ve heard…). I heard that Love conquers all…

But why hasn’t ‘Love’ conquered all???

See what’s fucked up about our world today is that no one is really motivated by ‘Love’… It’s not necessarily about ‘Power’ either. It’s more about the need to just ‘get by’ doing whatever it is we do to get by and dying knowing we did something. When in reality we didn’t do shit, but be part of a machine that subsequently helped shorten our existence.

I basically want to die knowing I LOVED someone and I’ll gladly exit this show with no curtain call. I just want to have that feeling… The feeling my parents still have to this day. The feeling I see when a mother and father look into a new born baby’s eyes… The feeling of comfort and security in the arms of someone who loves me and I love them. That’s all…

The rest of this shit… Yeah I’m good at it, but it’s not going to complete me (Real Talk).

So I guess Ghose is right, ‘Love’ needs to overcome ‘Power’ before people can honestly see what it means and how it can really change the way we look at the world… I just hope that day comes in my lifetime.


Footnote: Sri Chinmoy Ghose is a native of Indian, but spent his final days New York City and resided in QUEENS 🙂 my hometown. <=== How Real Is That

…:::MOOD MUSIC:::…

“Love… So many people use your name in vain/ Love… But,those who have faith in you sometimes go astray… Love… Through all the ups and downs the joys and hurts… Love… For better or worse I still will choose you first…”Musiq Soul Child

D/L: ===> Musiq Soul Child – Love

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Happy Holidays people!  I must say I can’t front, 2010 is gonna be special year. 🙂

MAKE ROOM & I’ll make you famous too 😉 … I hope you’re ready.

“I‘ll make you famous. Can’t you see… It only takes one night for you to frequent me… I’ll make you famous… (Drop top BM’s I’m the man girl friend)…

Props to C.E. for the assist on the image selection

D/L: ===> Da Youngsta’s (Illy Funkstaz) – I’ll Make U Famous


D/L: ===> Da Youngsta’s (Illy Funkstaz) – I’ll Make U Famous (Remix)

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