Archive for June, 2010

I’m so ready to give these hoes a fresh $300 champagne bubble bath… I’m just sayin’ 🙂

“I’m On The Pursuit Of Happiness & I Know Everything That Shines Ain’t Always Gonna Be Gold. I’ll Be Fine Once I Get It; I’ll Be Good….”


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Nick does a tribute to fathers for Father’s day.

This will be included on the Season Premiere (Deluxe Edition) coming in July.


Download: Nickelus F – Daddy N*gga (Father’s Day)

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Damaged People…

I would like to say I was “challenged” to write a blog on this topic and yes I’m always up for a challenge. Even though my thoughts on this topic my conflict with popular knowledge or what your local therapist may think… I still feel I’m suited to give insight to “damaged people” because I think I’ve damaged a few people and I’m not scared to admit I’m damaged goods myself, but who isn’t “damaged,” honestly?

Any type of emotional pain can scare the psyche and really do harm to the “id,” the “ego” or the “super-ego.” Anyway you look at it; anything that takes us down a notch can have a damaging effect on us mentally. How we carry that affliction is what separates us for in the long run.

To me “damaged people” come in three separate groups:

1. Those who can accept (not except) that they’ve been “hurt” or “damaged” emotionally.

I’d throw myself in this category because I’m pretty open. Once I’ve accepted something I try to learn from it and grow from it. I’ve had my heart broke, my feelings hurt, my life almost taken from me, but I still stand tall and face adversity like it’s nothing. Why?

Because life isn’t suppose to be a challenge, it’s a gift. No matter what happens to me or what type of damage is inflicted, I can’t let it effect me. I have a purpose in life and I was blessed with more than one chance to prove myself. Now no matter what “they” say, I’ll always be better than what they “say.” I can embrace the hate or the love and make it into fuel that keeps me driven towards my goals. I only fear indifference and that to me is the most damaging thing… And some people know that, but again… I try not to let it “damage” me.

2. Those who hold-on to their pain and never let it go no matter what.

You ever see someone who has a goiter?

It’s a pretty nasty sight to see and it reminds me of these people. The people that hold on to the past and can’t move on or see what gifts the present has for them. They let this pain… This damage inflicted on them run their lives. They become spiteful, say hurtful things and carry on as if the world is their trash bin because someone messed them up. I know this type very well and frankly I feel bad for them because like that goiter that’s growing from that woman’s neck; they can’t help, but carry their pain with them forever…

The world is full of these types. The Hitlers of the world… The nerd who becomes a CEO and picks on his/her employees who remind them of that person who picked on them in middle school… The police officer who didn’t have the balls to do something as a member of regular society so their gun and badge is where they hide their pain and where they inflict it as well…

These are the most dangerous damaged people to me… They embody negative energy and most of the time channel it to others through manipulation/games. They strive for control in relationships just so they can inflict more damage, but they have one ultimate failing that is usually they’re downfall. ===> They’re always are going to be unhappy because they can’t ever let go of the pain that makes them act the way they do. I feel sorry for these types because living out of spite doesn’t get you too far.

3. Those who use their pain as a crutch.

I know people like this too. They whine about a breakup or a lose till everyone is sick of them. I can relate too it as well and looking back, I’ll admit I was a mess because not only did I let it affect me. I let it linger into my social circle and mess things up to the point where I took the piss (as the British would say) literally… (see Dented Beamers & I Saw The Bitch Who Peed In My Car). People can go on and on with their pain and suffering, but won’t let go till something drastic happens. I can’t justify anything I did when my damaged ass used my emotions as a crutch. I was off in my own world. I began to write this blog back then and I started to renovate myself out of clear spite and I wasn’t ashamed to admit it.

To this day I kind of feel like that chapter in my life was the biggest waste of time ever, but I take from it not the damage, but the thought that I can do better. Which I clearly have, which kind of erases the damage in my eyes. 🙂

If you want to move up… Sometimes you need to move on

I came up with that quote sometime last year and I took it upon myself to live up to it because I refuse to be another sad and damaged person. As humans we’re breed to hate one another. Breed to point a finger at someone who is giving us a problem. We’re breed to inflict damage on each other…

Myself… I just take it all in and do me. I’m someone who’s breed on knowledge of self and determination. 😉 I spread love… Anything less would be uncivilized. 🙂

And even though I’m “damaged” in someway, I don’t let that shit phase me, run me or destroy me. I let it go…


…:::MOOD MUSIC:::…

Eminem – Brain Damage

“Brain damage, ever since the day I was born/ Drugs is what they used to say I was on/ They say I never knew which way I was goin/ But everywhere I go they keep playin my song” – Eminem

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“Say What You Sayin” is a leftover song from Season Premiere featuring Chicago artist G.O.D. Jewels that Nick wanted to let go in anticipation of Season Premiere’s late June re-release which will feature 4 extra bonus tracks including “Running,” “Shine On” (ft. XV), “Tell Em Like (F*ck Yewww)” & “Daddy Nigga.”


Download: Nickelus F ft. G.O.D. Jewels – So What You Sayin (Produced by Absolute)

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Hi, my name is Hugh and I haven’t written much lately because I’ve been helping put out classic/timeless music with Nickelus F (Season Premiere), I’ve been busy with my family and its new addition Baby Taylor AKA Super Baby Niece 🙂 & of course staring at this picture of Scarlett Johannson kissing Sandra Bullock all day ==> (click here)… So yeah basically my time has been spent doing a lot of things outside the realm of “writing.”

I’d like to make this my formal introduction back into the writing world because I miss it!

I’m going to start off light and talk about music in this one to ease the transition over into hardcore writer(ing) about “Damaged People” (via Bhumi) or “Hugh V. H Diddy Dollar” (via Alex). Yep! I’m back!


Summer Jams…

I’ve got to throw in my two cents about some summer music classics for y’all. It’s no surprise I hoard music like Rick Ross hoards Maybachs, but I actually listen to a lot of stuff and every summer has songs that I throw in rotation that just bring me to another place… You know those records that remind you of your childhood or bring you back to a moment in your life where things were just SWEET! As you my well know, everyday for me is candy coated, but there were standout moments that certain music made better and always take me away to a time when life was LIFE!  I’m taking this opportunity to share some of those moments now. 🙂


Beyonce ft. Ghostface Killah – Summertime (Remix)

This song just makes me smile. It was summer 2003 and it was my first summer where I was officially on my own. Life was good. Kenny & I had the bachelor pad on the island (Long Island) where the AC unit was busted till August… 😦 Money was straight and I was getting my feet wet in the music industry. I used to rock with this song on those long train rides into the city to check out Nu at the Universal building and just build. This song is just representative of what being at ease with life was like and doesn’t really take me to any one place in particular except “at ease” #CLASSIC!

“It was the summertime (when we fell in love)/ It was the summertime (when heaven shined on us)/ It was the summertime (baby there is nothing like the)/ Summertime, summertime…”

Nina Sky – Beautiful People

This song doesn’t mean as much to me as the person who sent it to me. It’s no secret I’m probably the only straight dude in the universe that likes Nina Sky’s whole catalog of music. I just think they’re voices are sooooo sweet, but yeah… July 2009 I got caught off guard and missed this one while I was juggling my 9to5, the blogs & Nick’s career. And my Muse sent it to me (she share’s a similar love for the Ninas that I do). I didn’t really peep the record till that weekend when the girls from Philly were down in DC for the 4th. Whooo-Lee Hoop & Niloo fell head over heals for the record and I was like, “wow my friends are actually fucking with a Nina Sky song?!?!” Whatever the case a few days later I hit up the Muse on some friendly shit and apparently I’d been cut off. I guess her life got to real and my feels too deep, but this song always brings me back to a place that was sort of a dream for me. To actually have someone who’s so much like me, but not like me at all in my life was refreshing. I can only think of the good when it comes to the Muse (even though we used to conflict a lot). I refuse to go backwards though. Life’s way too sweet to think about the negative shit and attitudes. I’m surrounded by too many ‘beautiful people’ to be worried about one and maybe not having that type of bond with someone now is a blessing because life took a drastic change after the Muse bounce. It’s all part of the cycle I guess.

“I’ma make it known the second I arrive/ For your sake, you better hope nobody catch my eye/ Cause since your living like you’re single/ I’ma do the same, I’ma do my thing, yeah…”

Swizz Beatz – That Oprah

Prosperity and cars are 2 of my favorite things in life. Superficial right? Not really… Because all that shit is jsut a bunch of  “things.” We should all want nice things in our lives. It only makes sense because if modest living is what we’d strive for this wouldn’t be America; it would be like North Korea or something… Any hoots, this song is synonymous with our summer of 2008. We were all doing well. Everyone’s stocks were up and banks accounts were looking pretty healthy. The recession was lingering, but we weren’t affected and the sun was out more than not that summer. It was a great time! BMW and Lexus, BBQ’s every other weekend (week days sometimes too) and a lust for life that was unmeasurable by the standards of  our peers. This song was the soundtrack to some wild night and is a shining example of how the word “flamboyant” should be used. No doubt about it, it’s a summertime classic!

“Red Enzo… A MILLION BUCK$!”

Nickelus F – Great Set Of Teeth (Monumentous)

What’s ill about working with Nick is to be able to bear witness to his greatness. To me he makes the art of Hip Hop music special and as a person who I’ve gotten to bond with, I feel like we’re family more than friends. This song impacted my life in Spring 2009, but hit the world Summer 2009 and it’s one of those songs that just keeps me in tune with the bigger picture. He talks about how he’s grown because of the new lives he now has to LIVE for. The lyrics just take me to a place that makes me feel like there’s more to life than what’s immediately in front of us… That if you set your mind on achieving a goal, don’t give up on it, no matter how long it takes you to get there. We’ve all been through a lot of ups and downs along this road to the top. We’ve seen friends pass us by and lesser talent succeed, but at the end of the day there’s something that we know will never die and that’s the art we’ve created. Whether it’s this song or something I write in my blog. The words we put down for all of you will live on as long as we keep pushing for them to… Get familiar with this and tell me what you can take from it because it made me really appreciate what life was about back then.

“I am proud to be the man that I am/No, I ain’t perfect, but I got a good heart and I recognize my purpose/ I deserve this/ The WordSmith from right up out the churches/ Let the world judge me and write about the verdict… You need that heartfelt/ I’ll come to your service/ So much more to me than what you see up on the surface/ A HEATHEN because I’m weak, but I desire to be more earnest…”

Ill Al Skratch – Summertime (It’s All Good)

1994… Yeah I’m type old with it, but this joint was hittin’! All I can say is from August to September that summer this was may jawn. Ill Al Skratch are still around somewhere and I hope they see this because this song made my summer, my life, my world a lot sweeter that year and I just recently discovered it again because it has long since been forgotten like the tape that it was on. Thank you to who ever pulled this one off the CD and put it on the internets for me to snatch up! Oh yeah and it’s properly titled to fit the mood 😉

“Madballs, 156 corner crew/ Where everyday life is shoot dice, drink brew/ When the sun shine it’s fine Uptown/ It only get better as the sun goes down/ I’m Al Skratch and I’m back with another rhyme/ In my hood it’s all good when it’s summertime…”

Mobb Deep ft. 50 Cent – If You Want It (Unreleased)

Before I had my iPhone I used to burn mad CDs of new music and rock with them in the V back in 2006. The 8-CD changer in the Audi was always full of new music for me to ride to on my many road trips from Merry-land to Pennsylvania. There was one CD that I particularly enjoyed that included this song and a few other songs from my Summer Jams collection. This one only stands out to me because (like beyonce) it just makes me happy whenever I hear it. It’s misogynistic (Like how I like all my music), but with a lightheartedness that kind of makes you forgive them for the content. My significant other at the time didn’t mind it so much either, which was cool too. Summer 2006 was full of good times, but sadly enough is a chapter in my life that only lives on through the music I enjoyed from the time. Other than that, it’s 2010 and I’m on!

“(If you want) You can kiss it girl. I won’t tell…”

So…  These songs were just the few that kind of stood out to me as I was coming up with shit to write. I really wasn’t planning on write more shit you probably wouldn’t care to read about this topic. But I will leave you with some words of wisdom my Muse told me about music that brings you to a place in time like these songs… “If you enjoy the music, but that time, that place or that person is gone. Just create a new experience and let those songs you love be the soundtrack to it.” She was a smart motherfucker for a crazy bitch, but I’m just as crazy too and I know what she means now because these songs mean so much more to me now than they did when I lived them…

Enjoy music people.


My Summer Jams:

Angie Martinez ft. Lil’ Mo & Sacario – If I Could Go
Beyonce ft. Ghostface Killah – Summertime (remix)
Ill Al Scratch –  Summertime (It’s All Good)
Janet Jackson – Doesnt Really Matter
Lil Lee ft. Nickelus F – Burglar Love (Produced by Ntelek)
Mobb Deep ft. 50 Cent – If You Want (UNRELEASED)
Nickelus F – Great Set Of Teeth (Monumentous)
Nina Sky – Beautiful People
Nina Sky ft. Rick Ross – Flippin That
Outkast – Morris Brown
Raekwon ft. Ghostface Killah, Method Man & Cappadonna – Ice Cream
Raphael Saadiq ft. T-Boz – Different Times
Swizz Beatz – That Oprah Freestyle
T.O.K. – Footprints
Tanto Metro Devonte – Teaser  (Scotch Bonnet Riddim)


Download: My Summer Jams

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Commonwealth will be re-releasing Nickelus F’s Season Premiere Mixtape to all of their retail outlets & iTunes very soon. “Running” is a track included in this “deluxe” edition of his latest that was not included on the original Memorial Day release.


Download: Nickelus F – Running (Produced by Stefan Skeeter)

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