DISCLAIMER: I always write a disclaimer to discourage criticism of my opinion and more so to hide behind the veil of “this blog is to entertain more so than it is to teach” when I write something like this. This time around I don’t want to throw that shield up. I want to just be 100 and honestly say this is how I feel right now. My opinion can change as I learn more from both sides, but I just want to get how I’m feeling now off my chest before I truly move towards one way of thinking or another because the things I say and do, may not come quite through…My words may not convey just what I’m feeling (NOW)…
I usually don’t write from perspective of things I can’t fully understand. I think like someone who’s not exactly in the right “state” of mind, but always in the right “frame” of mind to comprehend things like philosophy or progressive thinking, but never have I understood theological thinking or why people are so deeply into it till now….
I failed my Religion 101 class at Penn State, offended an instructor at a Christianity 101 course I took this Spring and after a stint in Catholic school as a youth I left thinking my school and religion were one in the same (Catholic). And when I transplanted myself into a “Public” school I started attending after my family relocated from Queens to Long Island, I literally thought my new ideology was “Public.” It was a very traumatic experience for me… Forreealzzz… I was confused o__O . Everything I knew at about 8-9 years of ago was centered around the Catholic Church and when I left it, I didn’t know if I still had to “follow” anymore… And not to mention the culture shock from going to a very diverse and mixed school to a majority white school…. Geez… I didn’t know what my race was till some white kid told me, but that’s a totally other subject I won’t even dwell on in this blog…
What I want to talk about now is this verse:
“I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” (Jeremiah 29:11(1))
But before I even delve into that verse I want to give some background to why I’m even at the point where I’m quoting Bible verses in my blog…
Do I believe in it?
That would be a resounding yes with a big BUT. The but is that I’m skeptical of some of the ways man has manipulated the “WORD OF GOD” to make us follow such things as “religion,” when in reality all we really need is “FAITH” in God.
When I say “FAITH” I mean a faith that there is a God…. (To me) That there is a son of God named Jesus that died for our sins. It may sound far fetched, but if you believe it and see it for yourself it is the truth. The absolute truth?
To me in my current state of mind… I wouldn’t believe anything else. To you… Well, it’s about the individual and the way he/she wants to carry it. I recently had a debate about this that kind of confused me. The argument was if this is the “ABSOLUTE TRUTH” to us, what about everyone else?
The answer given to me was, “This is the only TRUTH and none other!”
I said (again), “But what about all of those people that feel differently? Isn’t the “truth” something we come to a conclusion to on our own? Isn’t it only something that we see in relation to our environment, our upbringing and events that made us come to this ‘Truth?'”
See… I got confused and had even more questions because I’m more concerned about my fellow man than myself in this matter. I want to know how others can be more enlightened and share in my joy that I’ve found in God too while not believing the same things I believe to be true. How can it be done???? o__O
The answer is… It can (if you want it), but it can’t because it’s not for everyone… When you’re blessed, whether you believe or not (in God)… It doesn’t matter. You are set in route towards God’s Kingdom with his guidance and his word alone. I dabbled in many different ways of thinking about Faith over the years and it got to the point where nothing worked out at all, so I decided to just “believe in God” and let life play out its course.
Was it working for me?
A little bit, but not to the extent that I felt fulfilled… I found myself living reckless, not caring about family/friends and what mattered most… LIFE. I just found myself becoming more and more self absorbed and believed God was just there for me and I felt untouchable…
It all came crashing down when I failed myself as a human in a “RELATIONSHIP.” It wasn’t so much the other person that effected me… It was me that let myself down… Relationships are funny in that way… When we’re at a weak point in our lives they’re our saving grace. Especially when there’s no other options to be seen or expectations to be met. Just living in that moment can change you for the better or for worse.
I took to the latter part of that (the worst), but came out of it free and empowered myself to do something more than just live recklessly, but developing structure in my life and reckless living all kind of defined me at that point. I didn’t realize till recently that the plan for me was not to test the limits of my existence, but to live towards a limitless existence.
And I don’t mean after I die. Fuck that…. I have no clue what to expect when I die. Nor am I preparing for that demise. I’m not part of some death cult… Nah… But what I’m talking about is my LEGACY… What impression I leave on people now and forever…
Which bring me to the main topic of this blog ===> The #WORDS…
“I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”
This statement is so real to me… Always knowing God has a plan for us is the first step to enlightenment. The second step is to follow that path. I’ve sincerely been lost for so long and I’ve prospered in being lost… Meaning everything seems to even out no matter how bad things were or have been in the past for me, but now I have more clarity in thinking and I’m no longer in the pursuit of happiness… I’ve found it in just following God’s plan for me.
I kind of just let God sort it out while I still discover…
Do I have hope in the future?
Yes and No because the most important time in history is now… The Present… And what we do now makes the best possible future come out as a result of it all. I’m not preparing for death… I REFUSE TO. I was given this life to live NOW and I’m going to do it by just being the best I can be to my God and my people. Those are the only 2 things I’m sure of in this universe to be TRUE (to me) and that’s what I live for and will die for.
Try to enlighten others to just believe in something… Believing in something is the first step towards God. If you don’t believe in God (a creator) what’s the point of your existence?
It’s a debate that stems from people’s overall loss in faith when it comes to religion. There’s a BBC series called the “Atheism Tapes” on NetFlix that I watched and it’s gotten me so open on what the other side thinks of what’s real and what’s not. The people that they spoke to give the most validating argument to what is wrong with faith and religion and they all share a core disbelief in God because of the image of God that man has made up through theology. From a logical perspective why should we believe in a vengeful God that says, “worship me in one of my many forms or DIE in HELL!” It’s kind of a hard way to take in something that’s suppose to be “good” and the thinking man knows this isn’t the right way because evidence in nature, validated through science proves otherwise.
What strikes me about these people… These Atheists, is that they’re numb to the concept of “Spirituality” and how it kind of makes sense in this crazy world. If you aren’t in touch with that side of things, you’re really not a person who believes in anything (Believer in God or not). We don’t know exactly what our “soul” consists of, but we kind of know that the concept is that after we die we reach another level of consciousnesses that is above and beyond what we see on earth. Some strive for it… Others (like myself) are aware of it and see living in the NOW as what is going to be definitive in what we do after the NOW is over. Like I said earlier my legacy is what will define me when I’m dead and gone. What I write, what people I’ve touch, what people I’ve loved, what people I’ve IMPACTED will give me solid place in the “Afterlife.”
To live a life that doesn’t impact lives or make a difference, to me, seems UNFULFILLED… 😦
And the best way for myself and many others to reach FULFILLMENT is through WORDS. Words are the most powerful tool we have to come across to people and can possibly change some minds (for the better)… WORDS tantalize the mind and when they’re fully understood they can impact the soul… Whether you’re a missionary trying to spread the word of God to people who don’t know it or a guy who writes what he feels in a blog, it all leaves behind a legacy on earth and whatever comes after earth is just icing on the cake of LIFE for us.
I can admit it openly that I don’t want to be forgotten… My refusal to be “average” and not be forgotten keeps be motivated towards goals in life that some people can’t even imagine or seems lofty, but I’m always on the path to attain it because that’s what God put me here for. That’s my PATH… 29:11(1)
Here’s something to #Ponder…
This is my first use of the Bible in my writing and my head didn’t explode. GO ME!!! 🙂 Now I’m excited to learn more and relate it to my world… I let the words kind of flow out of me in this one and I was a little scared because when that happens I usually say more than the average reader can comprehend. I feel like this time around there’s no argument that can counteract my notion that we all have a path to the Kingdom Of God. The tough part is believing…. As a society we’ve lost that common belief in “something” that we don’t understand and when it comes up in conversation most of us are scared to talk about it. WHY?
Because some if us have the heart and knowledge to debate, argue, stand up for and fight for something we truly believe in, but not all of us have the heart to try to understand why it’s good to believe something else because we all think our ideology is right. And when you put everything you have on that ideology even in failing it’s hard to give up because you feel like it’s going to pull through for you one day… Like a bad relationship… You hope it will work for you one day… And then we wonder why so many people have turned into non-believers in recent times… Then we just shut up and give up the fight…
But there is a saving grace and that is we all fail to realize is that God is a constant and our perception of him is in direct correlation to how we think. If you can give yourself to God then there’s no limits to the amount of adversity you can withstand because God will see you though it all and you’ll eventually win (in your own mind). It’s simple “Mind Over Matter” from the Atheists’ perspective…. And what’s really wrong with that?
Absolutely nothing. So why can’t we all just accept each other and what works for us as individuals?
Think about that because my next blog is going to be about #LOVE… ❤
Download: ===> Black Star (Talib Kweli) – K.O.S. (Determination)
“At exactly which point do you start to realize that life without knowledge is, death in disguise? That’s why, Knowledge Of Self is like life after death. Apply it, to your life, let destiny manifest…” -Talib Kweli
“Stand in ovation, cause you put the HUGH in Human/ Cause and effect, effect everything you do and that’s why I got love in the face of hate…” -Talib Kweli