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R.I.P George Steinbrenner (July 4, 1930 – July 13, 2010)

One of the realest sports team owners ever…

Born on Independence Day and both loved/hated by many. George Steinbrenner wasn’t afraid to represent his city and carry on the tradition of New York as champions in his lifetime. He took the Yankees to another World Series Championship in 2009 and leaves this earth a winner like every true New Yorker should.

I admired this man because he was so real. Never held back his tongue and always made moves that would make his team & his city look the best they could be.

George… You will be missed and your legacy will carry on for ages… No one in sports has done it like you… You had the resources, talent and drive to carry New York sports on your back for almost 40 year! Let’s bring another World Series home for George Steinbrenner Yankees!

Rest In Peace…


…:::Mood Music:::…

“I’m like the George Steinbrenner of this shit…” -Dame Dash

Download/Listen: Dame Dash ft. Kanye West, Young Chris, Beanie Sigel, Cam’Ron & Twista – Champions (Dedicated To George Steinbrenner R.I.P)

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Damaged People…

I would like to say I was “challenged” to write a blog on this topic and yes I’m always up for a challenge. Even though my thoughts on this topic my conflict with popular knowledge or what your local therapist may think… I still feel I’m suited to give insight to “damaged people” because I think I’ve damaged a few people and I’m not scared to admit I’m damaged goods myself, but who isn’t “damaged,” honestly?

Any type of emotional pain can scare the psyche and really do harm to the “id,” the “ego” or the “super-ego.” Anyway you look at it; anything that takes us down a notch can have a damaging effect on us mentally. How we carry that affliction is what separates us for in the long run.

To me “damaged people” come in three separate groups:

1. Those who can accept (not except) that they’ve been “hurt” or “damaged” emotionally.

I’d throw myself in this category because I’m pretty open. Once I’ve accepted something I try to learn from it and grow from it. I’ve had my heart broke, my feelings hurt, my life almost taken from me, but I still stand tall and face adversity like it’s nothing. Why?

Because life isn’t suppose to be a challenge, it’s a gift. No matter what happens to me or what type of damage is inflicted, I can’t let it effect me. I have a purpose in life and I was blessed with more than one chance to prove myself. Now no matter what “they” say, I’ll always be better than what they “say.” I can embrace the hate or the love and make it into fuel that keeps me driven towards my goals. I only fear indifference and that to me is the most damaging thing… And some people know that, but again… I try not to let it “damage” me.

2. Those who hold-on to their pain and never let it go no matter what.

You ever see someone who has a goiter?

It’s a pretty nasty sight to see and it reminds me of these people. The people that hold on to the past and can’t move on or see what gifts the present has for them. They let this pain… This damage inflicted on them run their lives. They become spiteful, say hurtful things and carry on as if the world is their trash bin because someone messed them up. I know this type very well and frankly I feel bad for them because like that goiter that’s growing from that woman’s neck; they can’t help, but carry their pain with them forever…

The world is full of these types. The Hitlers of the world… The nerd who becomes a CEO and picks on his/her employees who remind them of that person who picked on them in middle school… The police officer who didn’t have the balls to do something as a member of regular society so their gun and badge is where they hide their pain and where they inflict it as well…

These are the most dangerous damaged people to me… They embody negative energy and most of the time channel it to others through manipulation/games. They strive for control in relationships just so they can inflict more damage, but they have one ultimate failing that is usually they’re downfall. ===> They’re always are going to be unhappy because they can’t ever let go of the pain that makes them act the way they do. I feel sorry for these types because living out of spite doesn’t get you too far.

3. Those who use their pain as a crutch.

I know people like this too. They whine about a breakup or a lose till everyone is sick of them. I can relate too it as well and looking back, I’ll admit I was a mess because not only did I let it affect me. I let it linger into my social circle and mess things up to the point where I took the piss (as the British would say) literally… (see Dented Beamers & I Saw The Bitch Who Peed In My Car). People can go on and on with their pain and suffering, but won’t let go till something drastic happens. I can’t justify anything I did when my damaged ass used my emotions as a crutch. I was off in my own world. I began to write this blog back then and I started to renovate myself out of clear spite and I wasn’t ashamed to admit it.

To this day I kind of feel like that chapter in my life was the biggest waste of time ever, but I take from it not the damage, but the thought that I can do better. Which I clearly have, which kind of erases the damage in my eyes. 🙂

If you want to move up… Sometimes you need to move on

I came up with that quote sometime last year and I took it upon myself to live up to it because I refuse to be another sad and damaged person. As humans we’re breed to hate one another. Breed to point a finger at someone who is giving us a problem. We’re breed to inflict damage on each other…

Myself… I just take it all in and do me. I’m someone who’s breed on knowledge of self and determination. 😉 I spread love… Anything less would be uncivilized. 🙂

And even though I’m “damaged” in someway, I don’t let that shit phase me, run me or destroy me. I let it go…


…:::MOOD MUSIC:::…

Eminem – Brain Damage

“Brain damage, ever since the day I was born/ Drugs is what they used to say I was on/ They say I never knew which way I was goin/ But everywhere I go they keep playin my song” – Eminem

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M.I.A has been one of my favorites since I discovered her in about 2002. I Didn’t appreciate her for real until 2006-2007… Of course off her “Paper Planes” single. Now she’s a momma and mega-rich off one song and decides to comeback with a hard-rock/hip-hop/noise garden of a song with an ultra-violent video that promotes the murder of Ginger Kids and the beating of really fat old people. I LOVE IT! 😉

Real talk though the video is pretty interesting and kind reminds me that art… Well art is pretty much what the artist  wants it to be (even when it has nothing to do with the song in the case of a music video like this). Can’t go wrong with that excuse when it comes to fuckery like this. “Born Free” was directed by Romain-Gavras, who I’m hearing is notorious for ultra-violent music videos. I’m going to check more of his work out ASAP!.

Any hoots, enjoy this one. It’s a pretty dope video if you can stand red headed kids getting blown to bits and old naked fat people getting beaten with batons. (._.)


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Download: M.I.A. – Born Free

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DISCLAIMER: Like I always say, I write to entertain, but my writing is also part of me. So take it for what it’s meant to be “ENTERTAINMENT” and “MY WORDS.” Oh and it is ART too. I ❤ the arts! Enjoy 😉

“I’d rather be hated for who I am, than loved for who I am not.” -Kurt Cobain

How raw of a quote is that?

I’ll be honest and admit that I’m not the best person in this world. Actually I’m probably close to the opposite of what we think is a “Good Person.” I’m not understanding. I’m far from compassionate. And most of all I’m hyper critical. All core values that would make me a good shock-jock on the radio, but leaves me at a distance from some of the people who count on me as a confidante/friend at times. I see it more and more as some people start to distance themselves from me, but why?

I’m actually a nice guy and relatively harmless, besides having a sharp tongue, but what sets me apart from the rest of the “animals” I flock with in society is my “moral” standing. I don’t believe in perpetrating lies while in pursuit of some false “greater good.” Why live a lie to save face or to not hurt someone’s feelings when at the end of the day the truth really can set you free?

I know a lot of people who live a lie or give into things they feel will end some type of “drama” in their lives, but really is that benefiting anyone?

See…  I look at society as three sets. 1) Those who are scared of what’s different. 2) Those who want to be different, but are scared of the people who are scared to be different and 3) The non-conformists.

I’m proud to be #3 because the differences in me is what makes me unique. I like to say this, “I don’t conform. I reform.” People don’t get that about me sometimes and it’s cool. I don’t expect you to understand me right away, but through my writing I hope you get an idea…

Which brings me to The Lies…

I told a friend this once… “Tell someone the truth and they don’t believe you, but if you lie to them… They adore…” It’s so true and sad. We like to be lied to. Someone who’s blunt and honest with you, usually isn’t atop your friends list on FaceBook or Myspace and in most cases you would harbor a deep resentment for someone who keep it “real” with you all the time. Which to me is wack.

The TRUTH hurts, LIES kill…

When you lie to someone, like “Daam Hugh, you look like you’ve lost weight…” Right… Shit like that makes it more comfortable for me to eat more and get fatter and you thought you were being nice. NURP! YOU’RE HELPING TO KILL ME!!!! THANK YOU!

But for real, it’s shit like that, that makes this world fucked up. Who is that benefiting? Bending the truth about someone’s faults doesn’t help them or you much. So I try to be objective and real with people. Someone like myself makes that guilty feeling in you rise up and makes you think. In some cases makes you cry (Yes… I’ve made people cry). The truth hurts and I bask in it. I’m so trill and it doesn’t bother me to be honest because lies only hurt you in the long run.

That’s part of the big reason people confide in me. I’m probably the worst person to confide in overall because to me a lot of the shit people think are “problems” are a joke, when there’s real fucked up shit in society we should be more concerned about. Relationships, he say/she say and pillow talk are not things that are earth shattering…

Don’t get it twisted, I reveal in emotion myself, but I’ve learned that my heart and my mind work separately and that’s what kind of sets me apart from a lot of people. I’m not compassionate to the human cause. It sounds fucked up, but that’s just the way it is. I’m not saying I don’t give to charity or help people. That’s my goal in life, to help people, but we’ve got to see past the signs for help and cut through the bullshit to see who truly needs that help. Basically dead the lies and be honest with yourselves is what I’m saying. Ask yourself, “is this life I lead the life I truly always wanted? Or do I want more or something different?” Is the weight of the world on me or am I selfish and feel my “issues” out weigh the bigger picture?

Strive for #CHANGE…

So what’s the truth about me:

– I’m an ego maniac…

– I’m obsessed with Nina Sky’s music, but not them in particular. They’re cool people I guess, but overall I’d rather listen to them sing than hang out with them…

– I’m emotional… SMH… (._.)

– I flip flop on bad habits in my life… Drinking/Smoking weed. I do them and then I don’t. Currently I don’t and I’m good.

– Women… I ❤ them. 🙂  I see myself settling down with one some day. 😉

– Friends… Love/Hate relationship with all of them, but oddly enough the ones that appreciate my knowledge stick around because I’m usually right about 99.9999%.

– Family… They adore me. Even though I’m the biggest asshole in the fam… I’ll never understand that shit.

–  I’m insecure about my weight… I lost a lot of weight and with that I shed some confidence. It’s suppose to be the opposite way around (I know), but the more I see myself taking on my brother from another mother’s form (Brad Pitt), I find myself less open, which is so weird… I used to be way more confident as the jolly fat man.

– God… I believe in him. He’s pretty awesome.

– Love… I love everything about this world, except Hipsters, Dane Cook & Lupe Fiasco…

– Being in Love… I can honestly say I was in love for a few months last year and the feeling was good even though it wasn’t meant to be. Before or after that, I don’t think I’ve ever really felt it “for real,” but knowing how that felt for real, for real finally… Shit… I think I like it and I’ll know when it’s real when ever it comes around again.

– Money… I got rich, went broke and I’m on my way to being rich again. On that same shit again and all I can do now is STUNT HARD!

–  I’m cocky… If all the bullets I wrote didn’t clue you into that by now, then you’re RETARDED.

– I’m passionate… I go hard… I don’t play by rules…

– I cry… Haven’t cried in a long ass time, but I can admit to having cried.

– Indian women… YEP! 🙂 White girls… Why not! 🙂 Hispanic girls… Sure! 🙂 Middle Eastern women… Depends on how much body hair & nose they have. 🙂  Slanty Eyed Asian/Black girls… meh. 😦

– I’m racist… Yeah….. But not towards religions, cultures and people, but the stereotypes that we put on them. I kind of call out people who live up to stereotypes society puts on them. WE’RE IN AMERICA PEOPLE!!!

– I’m very open with strangers, which makes me pretty strange I guess, but it also makes me honest too. I’d rather be real than _________ <=== you fill in the blank.

I can go on for days with this shit about “me,” but I hope you get it. In this world of a lot of hate, I’ve chosen to not hate anyone. I’ll talk my shit of course, but it doesn’t mean I don’t particular want you to coexist with me. It just means that I don’t care what anyone thinks about me. I make a stunning first impression on people. In that first 10mins of talking to me, you’ve pretty much decided where I fit in your life. From there, it’s really up to you if you appreciate it or think that you’re better off without me. Either way, I’m always gonna be good because at least you know I kept it real.

So… That’s me and if you’re reading this and decided you don’t like what you see… Look in the mirror and ask yourself if anyone has ever seen the real you and would they like what they see?


…:::MOOD MUSIC:::…

Download: Nas ft. Puff Daddy = Hate Me Now

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Same shit different day…

“Beyonce’s Pussy > Being Illuminati” -H

To understand this you got to read this ===> Proof That Jay-Z = The Devil


…:::MOOD MUSIC:::…

“Fuck the slice we want the pie/ Why ask why till we fry/ Watch us all stand in line/ For a slice of the devil’s pie…” -D’Angelo

D/L: ===> D’Angelo – Devil’s Pie

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My homie Kev Clark (Don’t Lose Your Day Job ) sent me this video today and I posted it in the hopes I can help stop Jay-Z from taking over the world! Basically, it’s like this. Jay-Z = The Devil = Illuminati = Freemason Ichiban #1! After you watch this video there will be no doubt in your mind about it!

BUT! It goes deep than that… Deep than rap… Deep than Rick Ross’s voice when he’s stuffing his face with waffles… It’s all about MIND CONTROL & taking the truth and bending it so we believe what’s actually not there to be true while they enslave our minds and bodies to do the devils work. The devil meaning Jay-Z…

The brothers that made this video showed me that you can’t believe all that you hear, but believe all that you see and they showed ME the light!



Jay-Z’s The Blueprint dropped on 9/11. What better promotional tool than to blow up some buildings…” <=== HOW REAL IS THAT?


Seriously though… I’m gonna write something up about the “Illuminati” and that jazz soon. To school y’all on what it’s really about… Not like I know for real, but it’s out there, it’s real and we been living in it for hundreds of years… There’s always going to be layers to the “truth” it’s just a matter of what we choose to believe. It’s all about using your own brain. KNOWLEDGE OF SELF…

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“When the power of love overcomes the love for power, the world will know peace…”Sri Chinmoy Ghose

I’m a strong believer in the power of love… Love is what drives the weak to step up. Love is what makes us act passionately. Love is what makes us happy, sad and feel high all at the same time. Loves is what leads our emotions and our hearts forward. Love was the downfall of many great men/women (So I’ve heard…). I heard that Love conquers all…

But why hasn’t ‘Love’ conquered all???

See what’s fucked up about our world today is that no one is really motivated by ‘Love’… It’s not necessarily about ‘Power’ either. It’s more about the need to just ‘get by’ doing whatever it is we do to get by and dying knowing we did something. When in reality we didn’t do shit, but be part of a machine that subsequently helped shorten our existence.

I basically want to die knowing I LOVED someone and I’ll gladly exit this show with no curtain call. I just want to have that feeling… The feeling my parents still have to this day. The feeling I see when a mother and father look into a new born baby’s eyes… The feeling of comfort and security in the arms of someone who loves me and I love them. That’s all…

The rest of this shit… Yeah I’m good at it, but it’s not going to complete me (Real Talk).

So I guess Ghose is right, ‘Love’ needs to overcome ‘Power’ before people can honestly see what it means and how it can really change the way we look at the world… I just hope that day comes in my lifetime.


Footnote: Sri Chinmoy Ghose is a native of Indian, but spent his final days New York City and resided in QUEENS 🙂 my hometown. <=== How Real Is That

…:::MOOD MUSIC:::…

“Love… So many people use your name in vain/ Love… But,those who have faith in you sometimes go astray… Love… Through all the ups and downs the joys and hurts… Love… For better or worse I still will choose you first…”Musiq Soul Child

D/L: ===> Musiq Soul Child – Love

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