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e_skummy1I get a little down around this time of the year when I think about Skum. I knew him for a little over a year before he passed, but we bonded so fast.. . And when I mesh with people that well so quickly there’s always some “conflict” (ask The Muse about it).

So yeah Skum you can say was sort of like me… I remember taking Skum to Puerto Rico in March 2005 with my little brother Christian. This was the trip from HELL! ahhahaha…

1st I get a $300 speeding ticket that will eventually get me arrested and locked up 2 years later (that’s another story), but with Skum along for the trip it was on from the jump. We hopped on the plane and from take off to landing he was pretty much arguing with me about music. That was Skum. He was a bullheaded young nigga and loud as fuck. He argued with me even though he didn’t know why sometimes and I could never win (kinda reminds me of someone I’ve met recently).

Skum was a unique individual and one thing I regret in life was having a falling out with him over stupid shit. It was always stupid shit between us and when it came down to it, we lost touch before he died.

We was still cool though and what got me the most was that the night he died he called me, maybe a few hours before it happened, to tell me that he’d accomplished something he’d set out to do and I doubted him on. Of course he was calling to rub it in, but that was Skum for you. 🙂 He was like that!

I missed his call and typical me at the time, I didn’t call back…

e_skummy3When I found out what happened it crushed me cause none of us saw it coming or knew why someone would do something like this to Skum. He was a stand up dude. Always kept it real and lived by the code of the streets that he came from. A New York nigga just like me, but repped where he stayed which was Richmond.

It took me almost a week to realize what had happened and I ended up breaking down and crying it out… It was the first time I ever shed a tear for anyone and since then I’ve been pretty open with my emotions for people.  Skum passing the way he did made me appreciate the great people in my life more and gave me more insight to how precious time is with people.

As time passes I’ll never forget how Skum has changed me and everyone around him. I remember his funeral in Brooklyn where I think almost 100 people from Richmond to New York showed up. It was all love. Everyone there had nothing but love for Esan that day.

e_skummy2I had to do a mini-eulogy off the top of my head because his mother requested I do so. It was hard, but me being the natural public speaker that I am, I pulled it off and lightened up the room on a sad day. I talked about his music and the way we meshed as friends and business partners.

I paused myself for a moment and said, fuck it I’ll just say what I feel and what I know he’d say at my funeral… I stopped and said, “Skum could be an ASSHOLE sometimes, but that’s what made him great. He spoke from the heart.”

The response to that was mixed, but I know that he knows where that came from and it was all love. I couldn’t let my opinion rest even on a sad day, which is, I guess, something that I’ll never get over, but in Skummy’s case, it was something I knew he’d appreciate because we knew what it was between us. He was like a brother to me cause he knew how to check a nigga. And that’s what I always need… Someone to check me.

Today marks 4 years since his passing and I know he’s looking over Nick (Nickelus F) JR, Lil Lee, 5Mics, Radio B & myself from HEAVEN with a smile because his dream was this  music and we promised ourselves we’d do this for him because he was the STAR of this group… He was the life blood and heart of this crew and he was the LIGHT…

So we strive to be STARS now… Like Skum wanted… I know I got it and I owe to Skum for making me see it.

WE LOVE AND MISS YOU

ESAN ‘E-SKUMMY’ JORDAN

07.05.1983  – 07.09.2005

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DOWNLOAD: ===> E-Skummy ft. JR The Great – 4-Page Letter

DOWNLOAD: ===> E-Skummy ft. Nickelus F, JR The Great & 5Mics – Life’s A Bitch

E-Skummy & JR The Great Freestyle


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inspirationSo I’ve been without my inspiration for a little bit now and it’s not like I’m in that ‘I don’t feel like writing” mode, it’s that I’m just not inspired by what I see and hear around me lately. Part of the problem is I’m grounded… No whip (car) for at least another month and the exciting adventure that is my life is sort of on vacation in reality land for a short while. It’s all good though because It’s only going to build character and give me some time to think about what my next move is, which leads me to what I’m about to go in about.

AT THE END OF THE DAY DOES IT REALLY MATTER???

It’s a rhetorical question that some of us ask ourselves daily. Me personally I never really cared enough to figure that anything mattered till lately and it’s kind of… I guess good 🙂 that I care more now, but does it really matter?

At the end of the day we all die anyway, so why give a fuck about anything?

Well… That’s what makes us human. Our ability to care and think prolifically to garner the best results out of life, but at the end of the day who’s to say what’s best for us in LIFE besides ourselves?

I mean people from our family, to our friends to our jobs are constantly telling us how we should “LIVE.” I personally don’t think anyone has the right to tell us how we should live, what we should think or how we should conduct ourselves as individuals. I’m driven by a moral standard that prevents me from killing, raping or hurting other people in general (oh and I don’t want to go to jail either… Not a good look), which makes me “normal,” while others may not be like the majority that has this “common morality.” But that’s all good and shows the yin & the yang of our world. We can only let God judge us for how we live at the end of the day because God is the one that set us on our particular path in life.

footinmouthSo really at the end of the day what makes me and some others special is the ability to not carry on the burden of the masses. The ability to speak my mind and give an opinion. An opinion that some of you may love or hate, but at the end of the day is just another part of what makes me who I am and what makes you who you are.

Without the avenue to speak and think freely what the fuck is there left for us?

I’d die if I couldn’t speak my mind and let people know what I had to say or was feeling. That’s just me as a person and at the end of the day it’s like what makes me unique. Sometimes I get flack from friends (some friends more than others…) for how I so bluntly put things because I speak out before I think of someone’s reaction to what I have to say and that’s when the mighty foot is placed in the big mouth.

I’m no stranger to scrutiny by my peers though and I’ll admit, sometimes I’m dead wrong, but at the end of the day who/what is really right and like I said, “does it matter?”

I don’t think it does or ever will. I just want to be happy & I just want to live, which brings me to this…

ACTIONS SPEAK LOUDER THAN WORDSspeak_your_mind_by_whuffe1

So at the end of the day… If my actions wholehearted don’t reflect the retarded things I may say, does that make me bad because I speak out a certain way?

Some of you may say YESSIR!!! And others have gotten to know who I am and what kind of person I really am and can write it off as me being the bubble pot of wit and charm the ladies love and the dudes adhere to be 🙂 . See… I still have faith in some of the most terrible people I’ve ever encountered in life because again… Only God can judge us, so let’s leave it all in his hands at the end of the day

Oh yeah… AND FUCK WHAT THE HYPOCRISY HAS TO SAY BECAUSE MOST OF THOSE PEOPLE HAVEN’T LOOKED IN THE MIRROR AT THEMSELVES ENOUGH TO FAIRLY ASSESS THEIR ROLE IN THIS WORLD, SO FOR THEM TO JUDGE YOU FOR HOW YOU LIVE IS TOTALLY ASININE (FOOLISH)!

So I conclude by saying, “it doesn’t really matter…” At the end of the day… You (the individual) only have the right to say what’s really good or bad for you. God gave you a brain for that. USE IT! And don’t ever judge others for what they say or do or how they live. I come from a background that’s always held the bar high, but leveled me with the understanding that as a people we’re all the same… Money & Power do separate us, but as easy as it comes, it can go and that’s the ultimate level…

Can you handle it if at the end of the day you get leveled??? I did, but you can read back in my blog on that…

-H Diddy Blogger… Out

…:::MOOD MUSIC:::…

Janet Jackson – Doesn’t Really Matter

D/L: ===> Janet Jackson – Doesn’t Really Matter

LISTEN: ===> Janet Jackson – Doesn’t Really Matter

JR The Great ft. Janiz Ian – From Me To You

D/L: ===> JR The Great ft. Janiz Ian – From Me To You

LISTEN: ===> JR The Great ft. Janiz Ian – From Me To You

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