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“I’d rather be hated for who I am, than loved for who I am not.” -Kurt Cobain

How raw of a quote is that?

I’ll be honest and admit that I’m not the best person in this world. Actually I’m probably close to the opposite of what we think is a “Good Person.” I’m not understanding. I’m far from compassionate. And most of all I’m hyper critical. All core values that would make me a good shock-jock on the radio, but leaves me at a distance from some of the people who count on me as a confidante/friend at times. I see it more and more as some people start to distance themselves from me, but why?

I’m actually a nice guy and relatively harmless, besides having a sharp tongue, but what sets me apart from the rest of the “animals” I flock with in society is my “moral” standing. I don’t believe in perpetrating lies while in pursuit of some false “greater good.” Why live a lie to save face or to not hurt someone’s feelings when at the end of the day the truth really can set you free?

I know a lot of people who live a lie or give into things they feel will end some type of “drama” in their lives, but really is that benefiting anyone?

See…  I look at society as three sets. 1) Those who are scared of what’s different. 2) Those who want to be different, but are scared of the people who are scared to be different and 3) The non-conformists.

I’m proud to be #3 because the differences in me is what makes me unique. I like to say this, “I don’t conform. I reform.” People don’t get that about me sometimes and it’s cool. I don’t expect you to understand me right away, but through my writing I hope you get an idea…

Which brings me to The Lies…

I told a friend this once… “Tell someone the truth and they don’t believe you, but if you lie to them… They adore…” It’s so true and sad. We like to be lied to. Someone who’s blunt and honest with you, usually isn’t atop your friends list on FaceBook or Myspace and in most cases you would harbor a deep resentment for someone who keep it “real” with you all the time. Which to me is wack.

The TRUTH hurts, LIES kill…

When you lie to someone, like “Daam Hugh, you look like you’ve lost weight…” Right… Shit like that makes it more comfortable for me to eat more and get fatter and you thought you were being nice. NURP! YOU’RE HELPING TO KILL ME!!!! THANK YOU!

But for real, it’s shit like that, that makes this world fucked up. Who is that benefiting? Bending the truth about someone’s faults doesn’t help them or you much. So I try to be objective and real with people. Someone like myself makes that guilty feeling in you rise up and makes you think. In some cases makes you cry (Yes… I’ve made people cry). The truth hurts and I bask in it. I’m so trill and it doesn’t bother me to be honest because lies only hurt you in the long run.

That’s part of the big reason people confide in me. I’m probably the worst person to confide in overall because to me a lot of the shit people think are “problems” are a joke, when there’s real fucked up shit in society we should be more concerned about. Relationships, he say/she say and pillow talk are not things that are earth shattering…

Don’t get it twisted, I reveal in emotion myself, but I’ve learned that my heart and my mind work separately and that’s what kind of sets me apart from a lot of people. I’m not compassionate to the human cause. It sounds fucked up, but that’s just the way it is. I’m not saying I don’t give to charity or help people. That’s my goal in life, to help people, but we’ve got to see past the signs for help and cut through the bullshit to see who truly needs that help. Basically dead the lies and be honest with yourselves is what I’m saying. Ask yourself, “is this life I lead the life I truly always wanted? Or do I want more or something different?” Is the weight of the world on me or am I selfish and feel my “issues” out weigh the bigger picture?

Strive for #CHANGE…

So what’s the truth about me:

– I’m an ego maniac…

– I’m obsessed with Nina Sky’s music, but not them in particular. They’re cool people I guess, but overall I’d rather listen to them sing than hang out with them…

– I’m emotional… SMH… (._.)

– I flip flop on bad habits in my life… Drinking/Smoking weed. I do them and then I don’t. Currently I don’t and I’m good.

– Women… I ❤ them. 🙂  I see myself settling down with one some day. 😉

– Friends… Love/Hate relationship with all of them, but oddly enough the ones that appreciate my knowledge stick around because I’m usually right about 99.9999%.

– Family… They adore me. Even though I’m the biggest asshole in the fam… I’ll never understand that shit.

–  I’m insecure about my weight… I lost a lot of weight and with that I shed some confidence. It’s suppose to be the opposite way around (I know), but the more I see myself taking on my brother from another mother’s form (Brad Pitt), I find myself less open, which is so weird… I used to be way more confident as the jolly fat man.

– God… I believe in him. He’s pretty awesome.

– Love… I love everything about this world, except Hipsters, Dane Cook & Lupe Fiasco…

– Being in Love… I can honestly say I was in love for a few months last year and the feeling was good even though it wasn’t meant to be. Before or after that, I don’t think I’ve ever really felt it “for real,” but knowing how that felt for real, for real finally… Shit… I think I like it and I’ll know when it’s real when ever it comes around again.

– Money… I got rich, went broke and I’m on my way to being rich again. On that same shit again and all I can do now is STUNT HARD!

–  I’m cocky… If all the bullets I wrote didn’t clue you into that by now, then you’re RETARDED.

– I’m passionate… I go hard… I don’t play by rules…

– I cry… Haven’t cried in a long ass time, but I can admit to having cried.

– Indian women… YEP! 🙂 White girls… Why not! 🙂 Hispanic girls… Sure! 🙂 Middle Eastern women… Depends on how much body hair & nose they have. 🙂  Slanty Eyed Asian/Black girls… meh. 😦

– I’m racist… Yeah….. But not towards religions, cultures and people, but the stereotypes that we put on them. I kind of call out people who live up to stereotypes society puts on them. WE’RE IN AMERICA PEOPLE!!!

– I’m very open with strangers, which makes me pretty strange I guess, but it also makes me honest too. I’d rather be real than _________ <=== you fill in the blank.

I can go on for days with this shit about “me,” but I hope you get it. In this world of a lot of hate, I’ve chosen to not hate anyone. I’ll talk my shit of course, but it doesn’t mean I don’t particular want you to coexist with me. It just means that I don’t care what anyone thinks about me. I make a stunning first impression on people. In that first 10mins of talking to me, you’ve pretty much decided where I fit in your life. From there, it’s really up to you if you appreciate it or think that you’re better off without me. Either way, I’m always gonna be good because at least you know I kept it real.

So… That’s me and if you’re reading this and decided you don’t like what you see… Look in the mirror and ask yourself if anyone has ever seen the real you and would they like what they see?


…:::MOOD MUSIC:::…

Download: Nas ft. Puff Daddy = Hate Me Now

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Janis Joplin & Big Brother & The Holding Company

“Being an intellectual creates a lot of questions and no answers. You can fill your life up with ideas and still go home lonely. All you really have that really matters are feelings. That’s what music is to me.” -Janis Joplin

…:::MOOD MUSIC:::…

D/L: ===> Alicia Keys – Sweet Music

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Sometimes a kind word keeps my good vibes going in an up doo and up beat manner. Thanks French Tutor… I’m back in NYC the top of 2010 as I promised myself. No time like the present to do what I vowed to do for myself I’d do this year.

And thank you C.E. for the real talk that made me write that last blog (QUOTE OF THE DAY: Christina Evangeline).

Now it’s all about spending the time to make things work from now on instead of tearing shit down.

RELATED LINK: QUOTE OF THE DAY: Christina Evangeline

karina_comment…:::MOOD MUSIC:::…

“Taking care of business yeah without a doubt/ And I’m ‘ma make a million dollars kid before I’m out/ Yeah I gotta give a shout to my peeps in Corona/ Going hand to hand gettin’ loot on the corner/ Life is full of stress and to rest my brain/ So I puff the buddha bless and destroy the pain/ I gotta a lot of things to do, a lot of money to make/ I got no time for you and all the moves you fake…”

D/L: ===> Beatnuts – Props Over Here

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Super bored… Think I’ll prolly cave and go out with the fellas tonight. POW! 😉


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Quote Of The Day

move_up_on“If you want to move up… sometimes you need to move on…” – Hugh ‘H Diddy Dollar’ Mulzac

I told this to Lois Lame last night when we was having our ‘semi-annual’ catching up convo… So yeah, my stupid ass should listen to my own words sometimes. You see… I go for what I feel is ‘right’ even though it’s so ‘wrong’ sometimes. And don’t get it twisted; people feel my movement… I got my first real shot of cooool points in a long time when my new friend who’s friends with my other friend and Karel Marie (yes your name remains!) was actually disappointed when I she didn’t get to know me the first time we met. I was honestly blown away because I figured a fly chick like that wouldn’t even associate herself with someone as ‘unique’ as I am, but she was diggin’ my vibe… Then it hit me; I had forgotten how much of a MAGNET I was… How come???

Because I couldn’t move on from someone feeling I wasn’t i+ anymore… Basically my Muse (Wait… no more Muse… Her name is K). I let my cool slide with her cause I felt like she was just always going to be there and could handle the shit storm that is H. Apparently I eventually lost my edge with her and it ended with me going off because she carried me like a child on a text message (Talk about losing my cool…) Any hoots… that shit I had with her I threw on a back burner till I could figure it out and after awhile I forgot about it (after like 5 blogs I wrote inspired by our last talk that is). Either way it didn’t put me in a bad space, but put me in a different state of mind.

See I really can’t stand it when people don’t like me… I know people hate me; but they at least like me… (does that even make sense???)

It does to me… I’ve never left a bad impression on someone… EVER… Even when I’ve been super offensive or belligerent… But I think I did with K because after time we kind of drifted apart because we started to feel differently about our ‘dreams’ in life and I couldn’t understand why she changed up on me so quickly… But I kind of do now because ‘if you want to move up… sometimes you need to move on…”

When we first met our connection was ridiculously strong or she was a good bullshitter and can made shit seem real on the fly… Whatever it was I was taken in and loved every moment of it, but like I said as it went on she changed up because of her life situation and I refused to let what we had go because at the time it drove me to do more. I felt like K was like motivation…

I'm now & forever will be an industrial strength magnet!

I'm now & forever will be an industrial strength magnet!

Truth be told she did inspire me on the positive tip so much… She even compared our friendship to chemistry; how opposites attract and shit (such a dork)… But she threw me in as the electron (negative) charge and she was the proton (positive) charge. I honestly think we are just IONS with different charges (directions) in life now and the only charges we carry are credit card bills…

And me… I have the worst time moving on because people to me are the only standard in my life. We’re suppose to switch up cars and clothes; not people… In her case I can see how someone like myself wouldn’t fit in the picture anymore, but in my case I can’t see her not fitting in the picture anymore… She was a true friend and I neglected that and now regret it… 😦

We’ll always be golden even if we don’t speak because we still got an undeniable connection. That can’t be faded, but “if you want to move up… sometimes you need to move on…” I hope we’re not at that point though cause K is one of those people like me that’s just MAGNET and unlike me; she hasn’t forgotten that…. (I DO REMEMBER NOW THOUGH) and maybe we’ll be cool again… I know it’s really on me to get that right though.

– H Diddy Blogger… OUT

My quote is so fresh my super model friends Re-Twitted it ;-)

My quote is so fresh my super model friends Re-Twitted it 😉

…:::MOOD MUSIC:::…

“And I remember that day when she leavin’/ She almost blow my mind/ But it was the ending of SHE & the starting of ME/ Cause I know it’s MOVE UP time!/ I’m MOVING ON now to good times…” -Beenie Man

D/L: Beenie Man – Moving On


D/L: ===> Mos Def – Universal Magnetic

LISTEN: ===> Mos Def – Universal Magnetic

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JamesDean-RoySchat“Dream as if you’ll live forever, live as if you’ll die today.”– James Dean

Shit… talk about “The Fast Life.” This guy lived it to the limit in his movies, had the girls, the cars and clothes. And he was just a kid who was raised on a farm….

See, Dean wasn’t afraid to live life the way he wanted and died in the fastlane… I can’t say I would be so recklessly and live my life like that till my bittersweet demise, but daam he had it all and made a handsome corpse (no splenda) when it all ended.

As I see things in my life come together I wonder what my purpose is still because I see others in my world take the road “most traveled…” Am I wrong for taking the chances I’ve taken? Am I just lucky enough to be able to take the chances I’ve taken? Am I lost?

I honestly can’t give solid answers to any of those questions till I feel I’ve accomplished something great. Don’t get it twisted; I’ve done great things, but to me, it’s not enough. I don’t dream about riches & bitches… I dream about just being HAPPY and DOING ME. There’s nothing more fulfilling than true happiness. I can’t front like I can go along with a dog and pony show to save face for anyone. That’s why I’m so brash and most of all open…

Maybach_ExeleroSee… I had lunch with my friend Aby (Coffee With Aby The “Intricate(d)”)  a couple of weeks ago and it was pretty refreshing as usual because she’s one of the most genuine people I know and as usual has no words for my fuckery, but “oh Hugh…” 🙂 But she gets me and like me wants to be something more than just run of the mill life. She’s not afraid of the “lights, camera, action” and is focused on more than just a “comfortable existence.” let’s just say, she wants a Bugatti and I want a Maybach Exelero… That’s how big we think and how real it can be if we never stop believing we can get it.

I suppose that James Dean had a point when he said, “dream as if you’ll live forever…” I think I couldn’t go on living if I didn’t have a dream to accomplish in life… So I’m dedicating my life to never backing down on a challenge or a people I feel are worth the effort because the people I feel the most emotion toward seem to be the cream of the crop… MY NIGGAS… That’s why I’m ALIVE… That’s why I do this…

H Diddy Blogger… Out

…:::MOOD MUSIC:::…

D/L: ===> Jay-Z – Allure

“I may not even be alive/ I mean James Dean couldn’t escape the allure dying young leavin’ a good lookin’ corpse… of course -Jay-Z

D/L: ===> Nickelus F – I’m Alive! (Produced by Amir)

“I’m thinking about the Karma I know that I gotta deal with/ It’s coming back around pretty fast I can feel it/ Scary thing is it can come at any minute, but the only thing a nigga can do is deal with it/ So I; spark my ly look to my God surrender it to him!/ Put my hands in the sky!/ We all got problems, but we all still alive!/ Remember when we gone we don’t get a second try…” -Nickelus F


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alex_karras“It takes more courage to reveal insecurities than to hide them, more strength to relate to people than to dominate them, more ‘manhood’ to abide by thought-out principles rather than blind reflex. Toughness is in the soul and spirit, not in muscles and an immature mind.” -Alex Karras

Alex Karras AKA George Papadapolis was a former NFL star and more notably the adopted father of everyone’s favorite little guy Webster on TV. I really don’t know much about him otherwise, but that he made one of the best quotes I’ve ever heard in my life…

If you think about the words he said above and look in yourself to see what you are then you’ll learn a lot about yourself.

insecurity“It takes courage to reveal insecurities” I’m the type of person who gets people so open that they reveal a lot to me because I’m so open about myself to them. I’m not ashamed to admit I’m insecure about myself, but I’m confident enough to admit my insecurities, my faults and of course my opinion. That’s what makes ME, ME and it does take more strength to relate to people than to dominate them.” It’s true… No point in dominating someone if you can’t relate to them. Most people with this type of personality think they’re awesome and walk around thinking they’re great and everything is great in their own heads, but the reality is you’re just as funny style as the people they dominate. If you don’t play along with them they “react” rather than try to “relate” and conflict occurs.  Think of it this way, if you’re the dickhead always dictating the way things should go and people just do it to appease you, then you’re not making anyone happy, but yourself and people with that “self-serving” attitude don’t have much of a backbone at all because the thing in them that makes them act like that is what we call “insecurities” and we all have them, but when you repress your insecurities you tend to try to be over-bearing and dominant for the wrong reasons…

blind“More ‘manhood’ to abide by thought-out principles rather than blind reflex.” This is a statement that is cause for debate with me because the context of it is vague… A “thought-out principles” can be our own way of thinking that is rational and planned, while a “blind reflex” can be interpreted as old thinking that you just roll with and feel is common place, like blindly following religious faith when you don’t actually believe in it. People base their principles on various ideals and influences, that sort of make them blindly follow a certain path. It’s your classic “blind leading the blind” syndrome. You go through life only following what the person ahead of you knows and that becomes your path in life… That person may have had a good life, but that’s not your life at all at the end of the day. Following blindly, to me, is not only stupid, but doesn’t show strength at all. To be one with yourself you have to set goals and aspirations that you feel will ultimately make you happy and that is a sign of strength… All I’m saying is to not doubt yourself or what you’re capable of. If you feel in your heart and mind that you can do it, it will get it done and there’s no need to follow blindly down a path you may have not wanted!

Toughness is in the soul and spirit, not in muscles and an immature mind.” I’m the type to brush it off my shoulder most of the time. Yeah I get frustrated… Yeah I’ve been down and out… Yeah I’ve gone through the wash, but I don’t let to take a toll out on my soul… As much as I may complain or nag about my issues or my insecurities there’s always one constant that keeps me from giving in to all the shit and that’s  my  spirit… Naysayers and people with negative perspectives have always tried to hinder my ultimate goal, which is to become something you haven’t become, so I strive to  I constantly try to out do what hasn’t been done… You can have all the muscle of a power lifter, but when you can’t react maturely to a situation , where does that leave you later on in life? Do you have the balls to face the challenges of the real world or do you just run, hide and conform to the shit you’re already found yourself mired in?

real-world-logoMe?  Never… The real world isn’t a challenge to me. I’ve been tested out here and I’ve passed and I’m not content with it. Reaching my dreams and aspirations is the only challenge I have left. I hate to bring it back to my passion for more, but that’s where it all leads. If you’re contention with comfortable living (which has become the downfall of this economy and society) then, to me, you’re not someone I can really fuck with as I rise up. If you feel that your 401K, annuity and trust fund is your future, I feel bad for you because that shit is just like you’re saving up to die and ultimately you’re on the fast track to mediocrity…

I can’t live like that, I want to live laugh, love and attain all the fruits of my labor and share it with my people…

Call me crazy, but  George Papadapolis made a very great point in his words. ===>  It takes “strength” and a very unique person to actually deal with it all and come out on top on their own terms. I’d like to consider myself one of those people. What about you?

-H Diddy Blogger… Out

P.S.: excuse me if I got a little too philosophical, but this was a daam good quote 😉

…:::MOOD MUSIC:::…

“See I kill it and deliver, but I feel I’m so far from my prime that I feel like I’m a beginner/ But I’m so far from the worst that I feel like I’m the BEST/ So many people falling off; I feel like I’m what’s NEXT/ I feel that when I get there; the public will ACCEPT/ I feel like when I get there; the other will get VEXED/ So I keep a platform up under me & I spit the TRUTH and I ain’t hating on tobacco companies…” -Nickelus F

D/L: ===> Nickelus F – The People Say (Produced by M.Rell)

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