I’m so late sometimes with music that it kills me… I discovered this one when I was watching some MTVU Awards red carpet interviews on URB Magazine and I was like daam she’s kinda fly… Didn’t know she did music till I googled her. Actually copped the album on iTunes and I’m freaking hooked!
I listened to it 5x today and had to throw up a blog about it. My favorite song is “Rain.” They made a video for it and it’s very dope.
Anjulie is from Toronto (She is of Canadian, Indian and Guyanese origin). Daaaam… Drake, Melanie Fiona, Colin Munroe, Boi 1da & the list goes on… Is T.O. taking over the music scene? I don’t know, but this chick is amazing and is repping the T.O. proper!
Check out “Rain” and get her album if you’re diggin’ this jawn because it’s definitely worth it!
I’ve decided to bring it back to the hockey jersey this winter… Anyone from NYC in the mid-90’s knows the style. I first saw these in 1994 when Black Moon dropped the video to “I Got Cha Opin“ and I was like I need to get me one of them jawns…
Then I saw Nas and every other rapper on it… I had to catch up!
So I went and got me a couple of fresh ones in winter ‘94-’95. So… I got like 4 classic I need to bring back….These are my 2 favorites that I own…
Penguins 1994 Home Jersey
1990 NHL All-Star Jersey
I Got Cha Opin Video (CLASSIC NHL JERSEYS ALL OVER THIS JAWN)
I’m callin (Yeah maybe I’m selfish)
Out to (I want you to myself I can’t help it)
All my (Yeah maybe I’m selfish)
Y’all my, ladies and I can’t (maybe I’m selfish)
(I can’t) Let you (let you)
(I want you to myself I can’t help it)
Be with (yeah) no one (yeah) but me (yeah) baby
OK… This has been out for a month and the Nina’s just told us about it? Daaamm….
Arguably my favorite song still going on for about 2 months now. The video is cool, but it needed more Natalie & Nicole shots in it!
Any hoots… Nina Sky’s new album looks like it’s going to drop some time in 2010 now. They “Beautiful People” single didn’t really connect that well with the clubs I guess… It’s a shame cause that’s a banger too. I’m excited for this one because it’s along time coming and the songs I’ve heard going back to 2006 have been hot and the stuff they haven’t leaked yet is very dope.
Cutest baby ever? Maybe... But I was actually cuter
I’m gonna keep this short and actually give props to the Scorpio kind… I can’t front I learned a lot from all of you and ironically in 2009 the addition of a Scorpio to my immediate family had me blown away (Baby Taylor 11.15.2009) and I feel it’s a great thing.
See… I don’t follow all this astrology shit even though I totally embody all the strengths and weaknesses of a “Gemini” while I look at the Scorpio as being well… SCARY because we’re so different.
BUT… I manage a Scorpio (Nickelus F), some of my friends are Scorpio (Nu, M.Rell, Drake…), some of my new friends like Cristal are Scorpio (Yes… She reminds me of this on the twitter daily…) and then there’s K… My Muse she’s is a Scorpio too and probably the most conflicting of them all to me (Happy Birthday by the way K… 11/19).
It’s confusing at times to be basically the polar opposite of these people and in a sense be so cool with them. Well… most of them. I guess it all lies in the fact that I’m who I am and don’t really care too much about how the stars line up anymore… I’ve disconnected from a lot of the BULLSHIT in my life and kind of feel that even though our signs may conflict, I basically don’t want to have issues with the Scorpio anymore.
I will however admit I’m too breezy and cool for a lot of the shit that a Scorpio brings to the table and maybe that’s what has caused a lot of the conflicts I’ve had with them… Especially with K. I’ve also had my differences with some of the Scorpio kind in my life… Shit Nu’s like family and I didn’t speak to him for almost 2 years over some bullshit… M.Rell and I had a falling out over shit I can’t even remember. Nick and I been cool cause even when we’ve been mad at each other the paperwork I got on him makes it so he has to talk to me. Shit… My relationships with Scorpio has been a rocky one, but all rocks are solid and so is my devotion to my peoples. Which brings me to LOYALTY… That’s one thing I’ve picked up from the Scorpio and was something I was missing before I became so close to them.
See, I‘ve learned that in one year a lot of shit can change for all of us and 2010 is going to be a year where I see a lot of these Scorpio people doing it big… It’s about time isn’t it?
This Gemini (even though I feel worn down at times trying to deal with the “Scorpio’s Mind”) feels that I’m really in sync with what makes all of you tick now… I’m not scared anymore. Mainly because of people like my friend Cristal who is such a sweet person… I have trouble believing she has claws and a venomous tail in her aura sometimes.
What’s cool is I’ve learned many lessons from all the Scorpios in my life and since my niece is one of y’all and I love her a bunch, I’ll learn to cope with my Scorpio issues and become not only a better friend to all of you, but more understanding…
Some of you seem to be a lost cause already, but I’m oblivious to that because part of being Gemini is being carefree and optimistic, but when you fuck with my FREEDOM that’s when conflict begins…
We’ll all have our day and I think many of our paths will cross again, not by force, but by fate. Fate aligned me with these people and I feel it will keep us all aligned in some way for life…
P.S.: If I ever fail (which I doubt) I have a gut feeling it will be out the hands of a Scorpio… I just have that feeling… So I just keep going hard before I get stung by the Scorpio’s poisonous tail.
Well I’m finally an uncle… My sister dropped her baby last night and it’s a GIRL! I’m happy and the baby is sooooo cute. I’m going to see her this Friday with the parents. I’m excited for my parents because they get to see their first grandchild and it takes a lot of pressure off me to get settle down now (something I’m not gonna be ready for at the moment).
Any hoots… Her name is Taylor and she’s got her momma’s everything except nose… Oh well she can’t be perfect. (JOKING!)
SHE’S BEAUTIFUL as all mixed babies are and she has two awesome parents and a great family to back her up too.
I’m stocking up on guns and knives to makes sure she’s well protected as we speak. I ain’t gonna have these weird ass, “Watagatapitusberry” lovin’ freaky kids trying to get at her!:-)
This is random, but makes me kinda happy. R.Les wrote this new album about a “girl” which I didn’t really know until after he gave me the ill advice he did that kinda made me look foolish, but after listening to the new album more I felt like I see what he meant when he told me to do what I did. It had to be done. People like us just have no other way to really express ourselves without making it loud. Some people like it and some (like in my case) don’t, but at least I let it be known and I have no regrets.
Any hoots… Back to this. Drake put me on to R.Les way back in 2005 when he was still writing/producing for Diddy and just had discovered Cassie. I got as close to his management when I tried to get at em for Drake. Basically I got the brush off, but I remember one time I was on one of my trips back home to NYC and I saw this nigga Ryan Leslie in the back of an E-Class Benz right next to me in traffic. I remember callin’ Drake up and was like I just seen your boy and he was like, “Did you holla?” and I was like, “Nah… I was driving… “
3-4 years later and I meet someone else who’s a fan of R.Les, my Muse, and she super put me on to him. It’s weird because at the time I was just getting over my feelings for someone and she was in the same boat, but really trying to hold on. We both embraced a common “love” for a lot of different things that made us bond so quickly. It felt good and made me start having more faith in women as a whole because I really had never met someone so genuine and caring… R. Les’s music seemed to be something that kinda held that together because after a while I was a big fan…
And about a month ago I got to meet R.Les and I realized that like all creative people we’ve got a common bond and that is; we’re just different from the rest of the animals on earth… And sometimes we’re so full of ourselves that we don’t see past the people we’re… Let me say, “taking advantage of” for the sake of being creative…It fucks up a lot shit sometimes and can ultimately lead to the lose of good people in your life.
Oh well…
So 3-60 degrees later we have a little video of R.Les going through his mini-documentary on the making of his new album that Miss Info was shooting secretly pops up on line. Part of it shows R.Les meeting with the homie Drake and talking about a possible collabo. We’ll see how it goes, but I see it happening. That’s something Drake wanted and never gave up on and now it’s coming true. I feel the same way about my dreams and that’s why I do what I do. If you’re so quick to change direction because you feel it won’t happen or you feel there’s no time left; that’s what’s called “giving up.” And that’s not what’s real… We’ve all faced obstacles and distractions, but to give into to those things is the final settlement on life to me.
I ain’t going out like that… I’m in this till the end…
I love songs that come from NYC that only really bang out on the NY radio stations and clubs… You know like “Chicken Noodle Soup,”Aunt Jackie” & more recently “Dancin’ On Me.”
It seem like when NYC makes a catchy club record it doesn’t seem to move past Philly radio as far as popularity… I guess our regional hits are too shitty for national air play.
Oh well… This is another one! Watagatapitusberry is so retarded that you can’t help but fuck with it after a few listens just because it’s so dumb…
Any hoots… Here’s one of the fan videos that I thought was the real one cause it had over 1million views on youtube… It’s super suspect (very splenda) and it makes me wonder what the fuck is wrong with these kids nowadays?
Disclaimer: I needed something to write about and the homie M.Rell suggested I go in on this topic. You can say these are some “random” thoughts on my behalf… I might be a boat and a hoe type of guy or I might not be… you’ll never know until you really get to know me… For now I’m just a writer with serious writers block…
You ever wonder what the big deal about “Boats & Hoes” is?
Well, I do and I think about it sometimes because I’ve see it so much because my family lives by the water, I worked for the largest boating association in the universe and yeah; I’ve been on the boat.
The feeling a white man must get when he’s out on his expensive 30footer with his daughter’s little co-ed college girlfriends frolicking around his deck is probably one that is as euphoric as getting head while you’re high on opium. Geezz… I can only imagine what goes through the minds of men with boats and hoes.
It’s truly a lifestyle we wish we could all attain, but is the ultimate in frivolous and wasteful living. The funny thing about the “Boats & Hoes” is that I was told once by one of my wealthy co-hearts that “boats” and “hoes” are the worst investment you can make. The cost to maintain a boat outweighs the boats value within a few years and hoes come with the money, so why invest in them?
Homie had a point, but there’s something about boats and hoes that fascinates me so much and makes me wonder why people (particularly white people) have so many of them.
It’s no surprise that as I get older I want more out of life and I wishfully think that there’s more to success than maintaining a boat so some hoes can use it as a floating tanning bed. It seems to be something that I want either way. Not because it’s a sign of high status or because hoes on boats look better than hoes on land, but because when you feel like there’s nothing left, but that type of shit in your life, why not go in for it?
The ultimate goal for guys like me would traditionally be to get the boats & hoes because that’s all we see. I wanted simpler things like stability, a good woman, 2.5 kids and a 5 bedroom, 3 bathroom house on a ½ acre of land, but that’s what I came from and my mum and dad didn’t spend all this money on me for me to settle for less than more than what they gave me. And when I did try to “settle” for that life, I ended up on the short end of the stick. So fuck it…
It’s all about the Boats & Hoes for this nigga… For now…
Been rockin’ out to this record all week. Robin Thicke is the shit! One of my favorite artists since way back to 2002 when he did “When I Get You Alone” record, while he was going though the long hair and bike messenger phase…
Any hoots Meiplé is hard and is just a fun ass song yo… Jay-Z kills it as usual and it’s all love on this one.
FYI: The official single “Shakin’ It For Daddy” with Nicki Minaj is CRAZY TOO! It’s been on serious rotation when I’ve gone to the gym this past week!
The first artist to make me stop listening to Jay-Z… The dude who knows no boundaries of creativity and does what he wants with his gift… The dude that made me want to keep doing this music shit forever… The reason I appreciate Hip Hop music still… The guy I talk to at phone @ 8am every morning about whatever is on my mind… The little known major inspiration/influence to everyone’s favorite artist right now (Drake)… The reason why I feel being creative is worth the trouble if you mean it… The person who taught me loyalty… The pickiest eater and hungriest nigga I know…The reason I started putting my family ahead of some of the other shit in my life… The reason I started working out (need to get my F on for the ladies)… The reason why a lot of underground rappers are scared right now… The reason a lot of mainstream rappers are stepping up their game…
The True God Emcee… Nickelus F
Some words for F on his birthday…
As we slowly approach our dreams and path in life to success; you’ve been a patience soul… Someone who like myself hasn’t settled for anything less than what their heart desires. I realize more than ever that happiness isn’t found in making do with what you got to work with, it’s making do with the potential you have in you to become something greater. Some of us have given in, some of us have settled, but with each passing day we’ve come closer and closer to our dreams and aspirations to the point where it’s so close we can see it, now it’s a matter of grabbing and holding on to it FOREVER…
I know if I stopped living and breathing today that I was part of something great… A legacy of entertainment that to most people doesn’t mean much at all because it hasn’t been broadcast on MTV & VH1, but means the world to me because I believed in it more than anything in my world. People can say what they want, but if they don’t listen… Well, they’re missing out and like every non believer they will soon enough jump on the bandwagon when the media starts to recognize the movement.
So when this shit all comes together let’s ride that wagon till the wheels fall off and we don’t have a care in the world nigga! OH-10 is gonna be bigger and better than we’ve ever done it. We’ve made an impression, now it’s time to make that impression FELT…
-H Diddy Blogger… Out
HAPPY BIRTHDAY HOMIE!!! FROM ALL OF US!!! LOVE YOU DAWG!
…:::MOOD MUSIC:::…
“Either I, need to make this music work or move from the Earth/ I’m preachin’ fire, need a choir, ’bout to take you all to church/ My congregation bombed the nation with this HIP HOP/ We in the race to fame, blowin’ pass the PIT STOPS…”
I remember doing an oral report on the Illuminati in the 10th or 11th grade and using this song as my example of how popular culture and the secret society are starting to converge… I was so right and Honors English class wasn’t ready for Onyx at all… I got away with saying “Nigger,” Bitch,” & “Fuck” in the name of academics! How real is that?
It was some rappers from QUEENS that enlightened me to what the world was really about in my teenage years… See us people from the Queens Borough are so smart, innovating, creative and ahead of our times, so this stuff is common knowledge.
Pay attention to the rhetoric in this song and look at how we are nowadays. If you don’t know much about the “Illuminati” google it, read Behold A Pale Horse or if you’re an extremist watch an Alex Jones video… I’m going to do my write-up on the Illuminati soon…
I’m ghost… Last Dayz niggas… I’m off the Cheers for some wings
“I’m America’s nightmare/ Young black and just don’t give a fuck/ I just want to get high and live it up/ So fuck a 9 to 5/ And whitey tryin to slave us/ With minimum wages/ Slammin my niggas up in cages/ Changing their behaviors/ And spittin razors that’s outrageous/ Smoking mooches is hopeless…” -Fredro Starr
Haven’t done a video blog in a minute… Enjoy this one… We just wildin’ out like we do on the reg. Shout outs to my dude Kofi for coming through last weekend for Halloween and making this all possible!
What the fuck happened to Loaded Lux??? This joint (“Wrong Doin’“) goes hard and Lux is one of the few artists that I can say did his thing along side Nick. They both crushed this Boi 1da track to death!!!
P.S.: I’ve got some things stashed away on the writing tip; I’m just not comfortable posting stuff yet. Will be back soon with more of the stuff y’all love… Promise. I ain’t gonna let no bitchassness effect me…
“Can I really be wrong for the way that I feel? I’m hungry as hell and you look like a meeeeeeeeeeal. You lookin’ like money and I got a lot of biiiiiiiiiills. So let’s help each other; give it up or get the steeeeel!!!! I’ll clap this jawn off at your nugget if you make me!” -Nickelus F
Daam Rih Rih you killin’ em! This is more like a first single to me and I’m glad it leaked now really. I LOVE IT! Jeezy put in a serious feature here too and like the title of the song, it’s HARD (No Splenda)…
Less of a stupid needy chick song like her “Doesn’t Mean Anything”, but a little harder of a track with a better message of ‘GET OVER IT.” Still sweet and still super emo… Typical Alicia. I’m still with you AK! Make something we can really rock to before the album drops homie!
In my opinion the best acoustic guitar song ever made and makes me think to myself sometimes you really don’t have to say too much to get your point across and it’s sometimes easier to just know someone cares rather than have to play the part 24/7…
When people say they care or they love you 24/7 more than likely it’s an act and with any “act” the show eventually ends… You know it’s real when you don’t have to remind yourself.
Aight… time to write about Boats & Hoes. Enjoy this soft shit while it lasts because I’m about to get real aggressive with my new content.
“Saying I love you/ Is not the words I want to hear from you/ It’s not that I want you/ Not to say, but if you only knew/ How easy it would be to show me how you feel/ More than words is all you have to do to make it real…”
Very dope video… A lot of aggressive content here…I will give Chris Brown a pass the Rihanna shit. I know it’s wrong and I’d never do some shit like that and trust me, I’ve had some monsterous bitches get on my shit. I’d never swing on a jawn though… That’s not cool. Only God can judge you now C.Bro…
So yeah, speaking of aggressive content and beatings. 50’s album leaked a couple of hours ago. I’m so fucking with it right now… I’ll check back soon enough with some updates on that.
Enjoy this record though… I call it C.Bro’s redemptions….
“Life isn’t just about the pussy… It’s about finding your passion and never letting go…”
…:::MOOD MUSIC:::…
“It’s crazy how the world turns/ Sometimes, you gotta light up and let it burn/ Sweep up your ashes, put ‘em up in a urn/ On a mantle for memories/ I hear you callin’ me, Lord knows you love me…”
For the past year and some change I’ve seen my world change a lot. I’ve taken on new ways of thinking, new friends and a new way of life that border lines the savage contention of the “common man.”
I realize more than ever that I’m not “common” and no one around me is either… Nor do we strive for just being content with what life has to offer to us on our first run up to the buffet that it is (life). We go for more and have gone to the greatest of lengths to get it. I’ve always believed there’s no limit to the amount you can do if you’re willing to do it and go hard for it! That’s why I do music and that’s why now I want to make a movie… It’s shit that I know I can do… Shit I feel I can do and become great at.
And I don’t dream any more… I live and do what I want. I tell my niggas that all the time… “You only live once…” “Live for the day…” “Do it like you’re doing it for TV…”
All cliches, but real fucking talk and last night I saw it for what it really was. What we’ve worked for and want out of life; which is all the “d’evils” everyone seems to hate on when they see people getting them from a distance. All the “good” shit I’ve touched in the past (cars, money, bitches & the good life), but lately seem to be a little at a distance to me lately…
Well… H Diddy seems is primed and ready for it now and so are my niggas! No matter what we do; success is all that’s in our vision and it’s not only for us, but for everyone who’s eating with us, but they got to feel it and work just as hard for it.
And don’t worry about our shit… It’s going to be straight in OH-10…
LOYALTY, TALENT, DRIVE & LOVE…
Those are the things that no matter what goes down between us stays consistent and I saw that last night when we reunited with a friend that seemed to be “so far gone” at some point, but in real terms is still down to earth with (us) his niggas. It was some real shit and made me feel good that some of that new positive attitude I’ve adopted from Nick, Aby and even the Muse seems to be working out for me and all of us.
Life’s only going to get better… Success or Die. Are you in?
YEP!… I’ve got to watch Penn State V. Michigan in a few and I wanted to say that and I wanted to post some pictures from this week up. I’ve gotten to chill with some real talent lately…It’s gotten me inspired already! Look out for some great writing from me soon… I’m changing up the style a bit
Downtime is always when I decided to get inspired by watching a movie, listening to music and reading… I haven’t heard this song in over 10 years… It’s so back in rotation and I still know every word.
I’ve got a lot of great shit to spill about so just wait… My next official blog will be about “BOATS & HOES” look for that one soon. Thank you M.Rell for the inspiration. Apparently I write too much bullshit according to him. He wants to read about what I know the most about boats & hoes….
Beatnuts “Hit Me With That” ===> Of course it’s a QUEENS thing Get with the best borough <=== HOW REAL IS THAT?
“I make it clear I’m a never be forgotten/ And you couldn’t find another MCWRITER that’s more rotten/ It’s the junkyard nigga get your shit straight…”
This sounds like a terrible R.Les impression of Pharrell…
It might grow on me, but right now it sounds like he’s trying to bite off Chad Hugo’s production style and Pharrell’s style of singing… I do dig when R.Les raps though. He don’t go in, but he does his thing.
I think this is the last leak and I have the whole album and it’s pretty dope! It doesn’t hold the weight his first album did for me though. That meant a lot more in the scheme of things personally than this one… Overall this one is more or less a good listen, rather than a heartfelt work of art to me.
Here is the theatrical trailer for the latest action movie Takers starring Hip Hop & R&B stars Tip “T.I.” Harris & Chris Brown and also staring Idris Elba, Matt Dillon, Zoe Saldana, Michael Ealy, Paul Walker, Jay Hernandez & Hayden Christensen.
November of last year I decided to take a bet with my friend Lois Lame Loser which was for both of us to stop drinking till her birthday in February of 2009.
Well long story short we tied and both felt great afterward. Of course she got wrecked on her birthday and I celebrated by drinking about a half gallon of Ciroc Obama on Valentines Day with Whoo-Lee Hoop, Ali & Shaun… How liberating a moment it was and how easy was it to get back into “drankin’” again.
Most of all what I got out of the experience was that I got to help a friend who maybe at the time needed a break from the extremes of life like I did. I don’t know any other reason why I’d do it than that. After all Lois was there for me when I almost made the biggest mistake of my life about a year before our bet ended.
See… What she doesn’t know and will read now is the night I first talked to her on the phone was the night I’d almost well… Let’s just say I almost made the biggest mistake of my life… She know the story now, but after I didn’t go through with it, I felt so off and needed someone to talk to. I saw her on MSN or AIM or whatever and hit her up. We ended up talking till like 6am and she we got to know each other so well after that.
Since that day we’ve been the best of friends. We talk about relationships, crack obscene jokes and just vibe like we’re actually neighbors… LL has been someone I confide in, trust and most of all will always look out for and do stupid shit like take bets like this and not drink or whatever. As long as I know she’s somewhat in a good space that’s all that really matters.
What’s crazy is we’ve never actually met in person… She came to me as a fan of Nick’s (Nickelus F) in 2005, started randomly hitting me up on AIM in 2007 and since 2008 she’s been there for the kid.I’m kind of glad we haven’t actually met in person yet because the way we are now seems to work, but the day will come and I think we’ll be aight…
So now some time has passed and another year has gone down the toilet. She’s still here and we decided to do what we did last year again, but for only 2 months…This time I was more will and able because I moderated a lot of the bad shit in my life, bad food, bad women and most of all bad writing…
So yeah… She caved and lost our new bet last weekend and even twitted about it
And now I’m so proud of myself for being a winner and beating a white girl. There’s no greater feeling in the world than that!
And Lois there’s always next year, next time or whatever… You’ll get another chance at it one day, but for now you’re just a loser… Daam shame too you’re so smart, so sexy, so rich and so white… You should have breezed though 2 months without blinking, but I guess that’s the breaks
I still got love for you though and will always be mindful of how great you are to me. This weekend, when I’m getting twisted at the Drizzy show for Howard Homecoming, I’ll sing his song “The Winner” in your honor.
“Faded Memories” is not one of the songs I paid much attention too on Nina Sky’s first album, maybe because it’s that cliche sad story about heart break and holding on to the past memories of love that clearly didn’t work out. And of course at that time I didn’t have much of an emotional tie to any woman that wasn’t based on a good sexual relationship.
I didn’t start thinking like a chick till 2-3 years ago when the time I spent with a woman was more important than money, sex or whatever meant to me, yeah maybe I was in love… But not with them, but I was in love with the situation. I loved to be part of something bigger than just me for once and to be embraced by family and friends in such away that made me feel “loved” made me think I was in love.
But what exactly is love? The more I think about it; it becomes a more of an obscure notion to me. I’m by no means in love now. I realized that my past “love” is my past and it was good and I have no regrets, but time wasted…
My “NOW” is to get on and be real about life. Can’t get caught up in what could have been with her or the one after that. People like me don’t need to be loved… We need to be wanted!
And to preach on about finding real love is another cliche because we never really get what we want when other people tend to dictate what they think we need when it comes to love.
If I was looking for stability, I’d love a girl who worked for the government or a hospital. If I was looking for good sex, I’d marry a porn star. If I was looking for money, I’d marry a rich old lady…
I’m just looking for someone who’s like me, who gets me and accepts me for me. Not much to ask for when you have everything else, but it’s the most difficult thing to find when you already met her and will prolly never see that again because silly me can’t even manage to be friends with someone like me…
Faded memories… Nah… I try not to let them fade because why forget about the good stuff when that’s what really counts, right?
And there’s too many fly jawns out there… Why dwell on what could have been great when living in the now can breed some decent potential.
By the way… I was just planning on posting this video of the Nina’s performing “Faded Memories” live @ SOB’s last month and went into my tangent about love and women and shit… Oh well… At least I got in out.
This is random, but makes me kinda happy. R.Les wrote this new album about a “girl” which I didn’t really know until after he gave me the ill advice he did that kinda made me look foolish, but after listening to the new album more I felt like I see what he meant when he told me to do what I did. It had to be done. People like us just have no other way to really express ourselves without making it loud. Some people like it and some (like in my case) don’t, but at least I let it be known and I have no regrets.
3-4 years later and I meet someone else who’s a fan of R.Les, my Muse, and she super put me on to him. It’s weird because at the time I was just getting over my feelings for someone and she was in the same boat, but really trying to hold on. We both embraced a common “love” for a lot of different things that made us bond so quickly. It felt good and made me start having more faith in women as a whole because I really had never met someone so genuine and caring… R. Les’s music seemed to be something that kinda held that together because after a while I was a big fan…
The feeling a white man must get when he’s out on his expensive 30footer with his daughter’s little co-ed college girlfriends frolicking around his deck is probably one that is as euphoric as getting head while you’re high on opium. Geezz… I can only imagine what goes through the minds of men with boats and hoes.
It’s no surprise that as I get older I want more out of life and I wishfully think that there’s more to success than maintaining a boat so some hoes can use it as a floating tanning bed. It seems to be something that I want either way. Not because it’s a sign of high status or because hoes on boats look better than hoes on land, but because when you feel like there’s nothing left, but that type of shit in your life, why not go in for it?
The first artist to make me stop listening to 
As we slowly approach our dreams and path in life to success; you’ve been a patience soul… Someone who like myself hasn’t settled for anything less than what their heart desires. I realize more than ever that happiness isn’t found in making do with what you got to work with, it’s making do with the potential you have in you to become something greater. Some of us have given in, some of us have settled, but with each passing day we’ve come closer and closer to our dreams and aspirations to the point where it’s so close we can see it, now it’s a matter of grabbing and holding on to it FOREVER…
I know if I stopped living and breathing today that I was part of something great… A legacy of entertainment that to most people doesn’t mean much at all because it hasn’t been broadcast on MTV & VH1, but means the world to me because I believed in it more than anything in my world. People can say what they want, but if they don’t listen… Well, they’re missing out and like every non believer they will soon enough jump on the bandwagon when the media starts to recognize the movement.
I remember doing an oral report on the 
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For the past year and some change I’ve seen my world change a lot. I’ve taken on new ways of thinking, new friends and a new way of life that border lines the savage contention of the “common man.”
Well… H Diddy seems is primed and ready for it now and so are my niggas! No matter what we do; success is all that’s in our vision and it’s not only for us, but for everyone who’s eating with us, but they got to feel it and work just as hard for it.
Downtime is always when I decided to get inspired by watching a movie, listening to music and reading… I haven’t heard this song in over 10 years… It’s so back in rotation and I still know every word.
Since that day we’ve been the best of friends. We talk about relationships, crack obscene jokes and just vibe like we’re actually neighbors… LL has been someone I confide in, trust and most of all will always look out for and do stupid shit like take bets like this and not drink or whatever. As long as I know she’s somewhat in a good space that’s all that really matters.
So yeah… She caved and lost our new bet last weekend and even twitted about it 
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But what exactly is love? The more I think about it; it becomes a more of an obscure notion to me. I’m by no means in love now. I realized that my past “love” is my past and it was good and I have no regrets, but time wasted…